Mauri Movers

31/07/2025

🌀 Why I Resist Inner Work (and Maybe You Do Too)

Today, I’ve been asking myself why inner work feels so hard.
And the truth is… I realized I don’t want clarity.

Because if I get clarity, I’ll have to change.
And if I change, I’ll have to take responsibility.
And if I take responsibility, I’ll have to stay focused and show up consistently.
And deep down, I don’t want to any responsibility —
Why?

When I was younger, i was given the extremes. I was given too much responsibility or no choice in many matters as a kid
And it left me feeling void, overwhelmed, and emotionally abandoned.
Many times
Now, even as an adult, responsibility feels heavy, unsafe… and even threatening.

A lot of the time, when it comes to being responsible, I can feel a concoction of emotion:
😔 Lethargic
😤 Angry
😟 Guilty
🌀 Numb
😡 Hate
🤢 Shame
😞 Greif
💢 Disappointment
😩 Stuck and overwhelmed
…And under all of that, there’s a deep feeling of hopelessness.

What I realized is:
💡 It’s not that I’m avoiding responsibility — I’m avoiding pain that hasn’t been felt.

👉 “What part of me is still carrying all of this? And what does it need from me right now?”

The answer is simple.

Todayy I want loving and support from myself and creating a container of safety to be in these feelings.
To listen and allow them to flow. so I can grieve what was.

If you're feeling brave, share what you are moving through below.

10/06/2025

01/05/2025

Shout out to all the people who have supported me over the past couple of years with my healing mahi and the carving.

Who knows, their friends, whanau, and others would benefit from my mahi?
I would be super grateful if you could give me a Google review to help other humans find me.

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10/02/2025

I am always grateful to receive feedback from whaiora the good, bad, or anything in between.
It's one thing to feel like you have done great, mahi, but to know the depths of other people's healing experiences is mana enhancing!
Thank you, Jay.

16/01/2025

I love it when I get the opportunity to share Romiromi as we have Tikanga within Honohono to keep myself and Whaiora(clients)safe.
Before anyone receives Romiromi, they need to receive an Honohono treatment to see where they are at.
Romiromi gets into the deepest layers of trauma we store in our bodies
So most of my whaiora I would not give them full Romiromi session as sometimes this can bring up more than they are ready to process and feel into.
Slow and steady is the way I like to approach my mahi.

14/01/2025

This thing was a wee bit harder than I thought. It took me 3 goes to get the pounamu sorted the 1st one broke. The 2nd ended up being too short.
2x to bind it to suit the taonga, but I'm pretty happy with how it turned out.

15/08/2024

12/08/2024

Get your body moving however that looks for you.
Taha Tinana is an important pillar in our hauora.
What calls you at this time in your life.

Seasons and time change constantly, so surrender to the call of your heart and wairua.

My self practice in yoga has waned a lot over the last year or so. It was feeling sticky, stagnant, and really hard to bring myself to the mat. I was holding on so tightly, which was not bringing me the ease or peace i was looking for, I realised now that yoga is something I like to share these days.

A couple of years ago, I joined the gym working on specific strength and mobility and had made really good progress before moving to Christchurch, and I am stoked to be jumping back on that waka

So I honour and acknowledge this part of the journey and hope to find more ease through all transitions.

11/08/2024

Carl Jung was an innovator of psychology.
He had many ideas and philosophies around the human existence and concepts of the shadow self.
The Carl Jung personality test is a great way to get a deeper understanding of how you operate and show up. It's cool to be able to identify where you are at in certain times in your life. Seasonally, yearly, or even monthly.