26/04/2024
I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE… 😔😭
For 9 years I was addicted to va**ng and smoking… 🚬
The first picture of me is from a trip to a friends wedding 5 years ago. Behind the camera her mother shook her head in disappointment. I didn’t care, I was young and invincible how could something that tastes like candy hurt you? 🤷🏼♀️
Ni****ne had such a negative hold on me so many years. I started smoking when something really traumatic happened in my life and I had continued to smoke and v**e since then.
I ended up in the hospital one day from struggling to breathe. I told everyone around me that it was due to inhaling dust at my job. I knew full well it wasn’t just that. I refused to blame va**ng or smoking for anything. Holding a v**e in my hand felt comforting, a close friend I could rely on when things got tough. Or a “anti anxiety” tool. I had told myself that I could cope with anything when I had my v**e by my side.
I told myself so many lies like those for years. 😔
I used to have mini panic attacks when I would lose my v**e or I would get angry at others when they say “that’s going to kill you” or “why don’t you just stop” I got angry because I knew that was true but I couldn’t stop.. I didn’t want to lose that close friend what was there for me for so many years.
It wasn’t until I started my new job beginning to help others that I knew now was the time to finally let go of that horrible habbit that had such a strong hold on me for SO MANY YEARS
The 2nd photo is of me 2 months ago since I said goodbye to that friend who never had my best interests at heart. I said goodbye to something that I knew needed to leave in order for me to share my story and continue to help others who may be on the same negative path that I was.
Interested in knowing how I stopped va**ng and smoking? Comment or DM me “I need this”
You matter,
Vanessa & Sadie 🐶🐾