
22/11/2024
Well here we are…it’s surgery time and you know what? The cleaning frenzy actually worked. I feel I’ve processed the emotions and am oddly calm. We arrive at the hospital and after final admin -on top of the previous 138 forms we head to my room. - no complaints btw I love thorough from the people involved in my surgery
I change into the obligatory unflattering gown and hop into the - get this - heated bed! My hunger from no food may be loud but I sure am cosy
I kiss my husband goodbye and give him the one. The only. Never to be repeated ‘thank you’ for snoring all night long because I’m too tired to be scared.
(What were you thinking I gave him 😂)
The prep work begins and I’m made to have my…….belly button sterilised # gag
Now I need to explain here - I have this odd thing (some might argue many)- it’s a total, freak out aversion to the b button. I can’t even think about touching mine, let alone witness someone put their finger in theirs. # More gagging. But I made it through
Waiting in the prep area I locked into some beautiful breathing exercises and even managed to doze between the medical team doing their thing. (Again thanks to husbands snores) The medical team are so lovely and skilled at small talk as they set me up on the operating table. The anaesthetist says something about sleep and……zzz
I wake up in recovery.
Vital checks begin - there will be many - and the focus is around my very low blood pressure. Seems my BP has been being a bit of a slacker (I was later to learn how much) and I learn another odd thing about me.My left arm reads higher than my right, and every so often the tricksters swap which has the nurses amused. I should’ve been taking bets.
Not something that ever came up during my years in first aid and volunteering on the ambulance.
Speaking of learning - how many of us actually understand our BP and what the numbers can indicate, how to use that knowledge?
We often only learn our health markers when our health has been impacted.
But imagine how empowering it would be to really navigate with confidence….less fear. More trust
I digress. For now I’m just gonna be here resting, managing pain and healing.
Talk soon xx