02/01/2025
A time of transition, growing pains, grit and pendulation between love and fear. Today I turned to my old journals filled with the deepest and rawest of musings and found some things it felt good to return to, I would like to share:
1οΈβ£ Ask yourself this question - βIf I were to take full responsibility for the entirity of my life exactly as it is right now, my feelings, complaints, time, habits, relationships, health and finances - what truths could I lovingly admit to myself? What do I need to gently shine the light of compassion on in order to account completely for every blockage, blindspot, limitation, obstacle and gap in my current awareness? Honest accountability, free of guilt or shame, is empowering. It reveals where we may be contributing to our own struggles and opens the door to the changes weβve been overlooking, avoiding or resisting.
2οΈβ£ Compete this sentence βIn 2025, I owe it to myself toβ¦β¦..β
3οΈβ£ Tip: if you want to know who you are, empty yourself. Strip away all labels, titles, achievements, assets and roles. The more you identify with your sense of self, the more you will suffer. Train the serviceability of the mind, the ability to choose where attention is placed, build the skill of being intentional with thought, so you can quieten the tendency to fabricate, elaborate, push, pull, and appropriate things as being substantial, as βmeβ or βmineβ.
4οΈβ£ Remeber: the new choice is going to feel wrong, unnatural and uncomfortable. It will take everything to override the mindβs effort to keep you stuck in the familiarity of false refuge. At any given moment, you can choose to start again.
One day I will organise and collate my years of scrawling into something that actually makes sense and is digestible. For now, ADHD wins π« If you made it to the funny carousel slides, youβre a legend. Thanks for being here x
#2025