04/01/2025
*** HOMEWOOD ***
*** Reflections on the last 24 hours ***
I don’t normally share my private life on fb but today, I’ve been thinking a lot about my day yesterday and as I like to do, I sat in the paddock this morning (in a screaming southerly) while my beautiful dogs ran around enjoying their early morning Zoomies and asked the question … what did yesterday’s experiences bring to my life, and my awareness? What was all of that about? I had to really think hard about that because yesterday was an incredibly emotional day for me and by the end of the day, I felt disrupted and shattered
It’s been a long time since I visited the spot where my Mum and Dads ashes were scattered by my family so, so that hubby and I could go on a road trip to visit their resting place, and also visit my dear friend who was laid to rest in Martinborough cemetery last May, the lovely lady working for us yesterday (Aunty B to our doggos), offered to babysit all of the dogs, and take care of Sweet Henry for us so with much gratitude, off we went. We had never taken a day off to do something like this before and on an emotional level … it was all a really big deal for me to be honest
The day was supposed to be rubbish weather wise, but the Universe truly smiled on us, and it was absolutely glorious. We sat at Whangaimoana beach on the sand for about an hour in the end … just chatting occasionally, chatting to my dad (who I still miss so much), and being at peace with such a comforting spot for us both. I grew up around there and although its not a pretty beach by any means, it’s a place that both Gordon and I feel a deep and peaceful connection to. It was a healing feeling to be there 🙏
Visiting the cemetery on the way home and looking at my friend’s face smiling out at me from her headstone felt really raw, and painful. I still miss her deeply and I was pleased hubby was there to walk with me back to the car
We arrived home to much joy and great happiness from the kids (they love their Aunty B, and luckily the feeling is mutual), but with much sadness from her we learned that what we suspected first thing in the morning about Henrys lungs and state of health … had progressed further. After us all trying so, so hard for days to save him … he wasn’t going to be able turn the corner for us and he now needed our help to put a stop to his suffering. It wasn’t a surprise but boy … it was really heartbreaking news all the same 💔
After the dogs were in bed, I went and sat with him (as I do when these times come to us), and I told him over and over what a true little champion he was, how strong and courageous he had been, and how much he was deeply loved by his mum, and by us too. I told him that next time, he will have his turn at the wonderful life he deserved this time … the world just wasn’t ready for him yet … 💔
Feeling strongly that there was message somewhere in the midst of all of the upset yesterday, this morning I sat in the paddock and asked … what was I supposed to understand from all of those tears yesterday, and all of the goodbyes that went with the three stories that made up the day. What did I need to understand? 🤔
And then it came to me … LIVE LIFE TODAY because today … you are here and the day has unfolded for you … so you need to buckle up and really make it count!!!
Well those words really hit me hard and made me feel incredibly still … and as they sunk in … also incredibly grateful
And then … my mind wandered to my people who come here to see me weekly. Four to five days a week, I work with the most courageous people … people who have had the lives that they anticipated stolen away by trauma, medical emergency, accident, injury, ill health, circumstances beyond their control etc, etc, and each time I see them they are struggling with pain, or emotional distress, or grief, or are simply just getting through the day on so many levels and they are all so courageous and brave … just like Sweet Henry was in his fight to get better
As we all walked home in the rain … I cried for my people, I cried for Henry, I cried for me, and I cried for everyone else who is in the midst of their own fight, or has to fight every day (for whatever the reason) … just to get through 😭
And then it suddenly hit me too, that it’s our duty to everyone, and everything around us, to always do our best to make this a better world each and every day, and to always try our hardest to enjoy it to the very best of our ability
Why? Because … we are blessed enough to actually have another day and yes … it’s not always that easy, or that perfect, and it doesn’t have to be a planet stopping effort to make a difference but just trying … well that is enough … ☺️
So, today and every day, enjoy … and be as awesome as you can be in your intentions to live each one to the very best of your ability because … you are here … and this is your life to live the best you possibly can 🙏
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