Hannah Joy

12/11/2025

She's a homecoming.
She's a landing
She's a "Shall we get you the help you need han?"
She's a cook you meals when you can't quite handle the basics.
She's a drive you around the bays
She's a crack you up laughing at yourself.

I wrote a song for her when I was only 16 going on god knows how old and it went a little like this.

"Alice is the best friend, that a girl could ever have"

How I had no idea what was to come or what fumbles and bumbles and rumbles were ahead.

In every single storm she's been there. She's never judged. She's never criticised. She's had questions. I mean hey. We have all had questions about my decisions haven't we.

But my God am I grateful to have a friend like Alice. She is a real one. A solid one. A forever one.

And I'm so happy to have a lily landing pad in this special one of a kind friend.

03/11/2025

🌟 She’s not broken — she’s been reborn. 🌟

3 weeks ago, I was admitted to Te Whare o Matairangi. What began in fear has become one of the most healing experiences of my life.

I’ve sung, painted, cried, laughed — and been deeply held by incredible nurses, staff, and friends. The anger has left; what remains is love and peace.

To Alice, who stayed by my side that first night, and to everyone who’s supported me — thank you.

When Gemma and I created Held, I never knew how much I’d need to be held myself.

✨ “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28 ✨

01/11/2025

12/10/2025

This is an important video to watch as I have decided to leave new age practices and follow Christ ✝️

07/10/2025

Get ready for the Held Retreat on November 14–16 in the beautiful Wellington Region.

This retreat is perfect for anyone dipping their toe into spirituality or personal growth, offering a mix of deep spiritual insights and practical, actionable guidance.

Your Transformative Weekend Includes:

Breathwork with Hannah Joy, a trauma-informed facilitator.
For women who often find themselves stuck in their head—whether they are mothers, business owners, CEOs, or simply caught in a cycle of overthinking—this technique is a powerful tool to reconnect with their whole body and move through emotions.

Values Work with Gemma.
She’ll guide you to discover what’s really important to you beneath the surface. You'll gain clarity on why you might be feeling disconnected from yourself and others, and learn how to make aligned decisions that take you toward the future you genuinely desire.

We’ve designed the Held Retreat to cater specifically to you. That means we’ll create workshops and experiences that directly address the current needs of our guests. Plus, we’ll ensure there’s time and space for you to truly relax, process your insights, and be completely looked after.

Hannah is also providing a human design report for everyone who joins the Held Retreat.

Get in touch with Hannah or Gemma to secure your booking at the link in the comments.

04/10/2025

Time to get out of my own damn way! 🔥💪👑

I woke around 2.22 am (angel numbers....I know)

I was finally over myself enough to admit I've been holding myself back.

The 10s of thousands I've spent on coaches, personal development, retreats, mentors, workshops, subscriptions and more all the blame I placed on the external withered away.

You truly can lead a horse to water but you cannot make it drink. It's my responsibility to do the steps. To walk the walk. To drink the water. To cut it with the sabotage and take the action steps.

The thing is....I know what to do and I keep telling myself I have *blocks*.....the truth.

My final fear is fear of success.

My gangly giraffe legs don't want to stand tall and I'm not even that scared of being bullied anymore. It's a given when you think outside the box anyway.

I've been showing up scattered, inconsistent and unclear because if I lead with bulletproof certainty it would be a different result.

I can't blame my parents, my family, my friends or my mentors. My partner, my exes, the dog next door.

The sole responsibility falls on my shoulders now.

So it's time. It's time to cut it with the BS and commit.

Commit to embodying her....the her that's been waiting in the wings. Waiting to showcase some talent. Waiting to publish her book. Waiting to earn some money with ethics and care and consideration.

So watch this space 🚀.

01/10/2025

Well

I was going to wait.but why wait right?

Why wait to stand in the full barren vulnerability of who you are.

When those closest to you exile and exit stage left....what have you got to lose.

It's time to honour another parent. David Garraway I remember being 13. And you making it clear that even if I loved women you'd still back me.

Regardless of any high or low you'd still be my biggest cheerleader.

But following a massive shaming from my mother aged 16 I retreated back into my shell and renounced that part of me.

I broke a lot of hearts along the way. I became the ghoster, the abuser and the breaker of dreams.

I became the men I despised.

Why.....because I was afraid to admit I liked and loved women.

I voted for men. I advocated for men.

Whilst silently loving and desiring more feminine. More women. More priestess.

In class Hannah fashion. My bi-sexuality is probably not a surprise to some.

But to me it's been a piece I've felt scared to share.

But hey. I love humans. Gay, straight, colourful, plump, skinny, weird or wacky.

I love you all

29/09/2025

When you join Held we don't tell you what you need - we listen.
Held isn't a "one-size-fits-all" experience; it's catered specifically for you.

We'll personally meet with you to design workshops and experiences that address your unique needs.

Ready to grow, be supported, and be held through the process? Message Gemma Watson or Hannah to book a quick call and discover if Held is the right fit.

Held Retreats offer a blend of spiritual insights and practical guidance, making them ideal for anyone who wants to explore spirituality without being fully immersed. These retreats are inspired by the recognition that while we often work hard to hold it all together, what we really need is to be he...