14/04/2025
The shifts I have felt within me recently have been monumental... If truth been told this has been 14 months in the making and finally BOOM... The boil has burst... Yes, trust me to use foul idiom... It feels f**k foul!
The stripping away of the false self (ego) it hasn't looked or felt pretty... Its been deep, raw, confronting and down right f**ken yucky...
Its a strange walk, when you work in the mental health space and then go through a deep purge within your own life, I am literally doing this in real time, reconnecting to parts of myself I have suppressed, intentionally to get through life...
I point blank rejected being Māori... And here I am with a Māori specific role - Of course this was going to lead to some massive shifts within me... I must not forget to mention, working in the space I have watched my Mum navigate her own mental health journey...
"HELLO, everything I have suppressed and avoided"
I know what this "looks" like externally, it looks like a breakdown, and by all f**ken accounts - It feels like one too... But my soul knows the way...
It's almost hilarious to think, my ego thought it was going to remain intact, as my soul led me into this situation...
As a beautiful friend said to me last night "It is time"...
These layers come up when it is time... To let go... Of the false narrative...
I have noticed shame and guilt come into the mix, as I have needed to take time off from mahi to rebalance myself meaning I have had to shuffle around whaiora and lean into the help of my hoamahi to pick up what I cannot carry...
Healing isnt linear it doesn't wait for the perfect time to be witnessed... It tells you when it is ready, and not the other way around, leaving no other choice - We have to make space for it...
What I know (which isnt much) is I need to allow this process to take place... Through all the emotions and body pain (the body really does keep the score)
I know in my heart, I can only meet people as deeply as I have met myself, whilst my ego dies I am being reborn - This is my initiation...
Hence the burning of the certificates.... Courses, trainings and wānanga can only point to something for you, they lead the horse to water - LIVED experience is where the real wisdom comes from, hard fought and won...
Anita x
Right now, a distinct RE-BIRTH is underway. Those on their conscious ascension path will be feeling it the most. You may feel like an older part of you is leaving for good. That's the TRANSFORMATION in effect...
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