15/07/2016
"Extinct"
It was an early morning and as I open my eyes I saw petals of roses scattered around my room, heart shaped balloons and a human size teddy bear and my boyfriend Chiro.
I covered my mouth and hurriedly went to the bathroom. I washed my face,brushed my teeth and fixed my hair and slowly opened the door and he was there standing in front.He cupped my face and pinched my cheeks afterwards.
“Silly! You are still beautiful even when you are sleeping” he stated
I can feel my blood running into my face . I really felt embarrassed.
“Did you like it?”
“No! I love it! Thank you hon!” I replied and hugged him.
I’m so lucky to have him. Today is our first month of being together. And I feel so loved. Everything was so perfect. Our relationship became stronger as problems occur. We argued and fought but we manage to fix it as soon as we can. We do not want to sleep at night knowing that we are not yet okay or we have a misunderstanding.
We have finished our studies and we started working out our professions. Everything went well. We still have time for each other. We went strong and strong as time pass by. But after several months of being together, everything changed. From long messages to simple hi and hello. From hours of calls to just minutes and seconds.
I talked to him and asked him if we have a problem. He just answers, “I’m just busy, you know that this is for our future.” I just reply a fake a smile in return. Everytime I ask him what our problemis, it was always his answer. I remained silent but then he added,“Hon, please don’t doubt my love for you. Just trust me okay?”
He then hug me tight and kiss my forehead. But then I don’t feel comfortable. My head hurts and I can’t see things clearly. I can feel hot liquid escaping my eyes I don’t know why maybe because of my head hurting really bad. I tapped Chiro’s shoulder. I can’t clearly see what his reaction was but I know he was worried. I felt dizzy and I nearly fell to the ground. Luckily he was able to catch me. I don’t understand why I feel this way but I can't do anything but to pray and cry so hard. I heard an ambulance siren approaching. Maybe Chiro called for it.
I can hear Mariz's voice but my eyes were half open. I still can hear Chiro’s voice shouting,“Hon! Wake up! Carmella wake up!” But then everything went black.
I can’t really remember what happen. I just know that I've been asleep for a long time. But I can see Chiro and My relatives happy so I concluded that everything was fine. I can see that they are busy so I just sat and watched them do the things they need to do.
We are going to a surprise party according to aunt Marie and we need to wear a formal dress.So I walked to my room to see if I have something to wear. Upon seeing the available clothes in my closet, I have decided to wear my black backless long gown and my black pumps. I’m still clueless who’s party we are going but I still chose to go with them. But I felt light and numb today.
Upon reaching the venue I found myself scanning the place. What a wonderful place! I saw a lot of petals and flowers scattered around the garden, a perfect dinning place. All of my relatives are there wearing very elegant dresses. I saw my cousin Mariz being blind folded by an unfamiliar person. She looks so beautiful in her pink long gown. I can still remember when Chiro was still courting me, Mariz was a witness on how persistent he was and how much he cares and loves me. When they reached the middle of the place, the spotlight went to her. But my heart pumped very fast as I saw Chiro kneeling down to her as she removed her blindfold .
My Chiro was proposing to her and not to me. I'm confused. I looked around and I saw people and my relatives very happy for the both of them. Some were cheering, shouting and crying maybe because of joy. I can feel tears starting to fall down from my eyes. I can see how much he cares for her and it broke my heart into pieces. Why was my boyfriend with my cousin? Why can't they see me? Can't they see that I'm here being hurt by them?
I can't stop my tears to fall down. I kept on shouting but it feels like no one can hear me. Until I got tired and sat on the ground.
Why all of the people he can fall in love with, why my cousin? Why were they doing this to me? I kept on brushing off the tears and I’m trying my best to stand up but I can’t. I feel so tired.
Then I saw the organizer giving Mariz a microphone. I think she will give her speech.
“First of all, I am shocked with this. I never expected Chiro to propos to me on this day because we never talked about marriage yet. But thank you love, for everything. You know how much I loved you right. Please don’t change and stay who you are. Second is that, I want to tell Carmella I’m sorry. I know you are now happy wherever you are right now."
I can see tears falling down from her eyes. But I’m still confused of what she is talking about. How can I be happy if my Chiro is no longer mine?
“Ella, its been 5 years but you are in my dreams this past few weeks. And I know this is because of Chiro. Ella, I love you. You know that. I care for you. You know how supportive I am to you and to Chiro. But then Ella, I can’t deny the fact that I also fell in love with him. I don’t know how it happen. I’m so sorry Ella. I’m really sorry. I tried my best to forget him but I can't. But then you died. I mourned for your death. I’m really sorry Ella”
She broke down as she uttered every word in her talk. She can’t talk anymore. I can see that because she is crying so hard.
The people in the venue was crying too. I can see my mom crying so hard and I can see my dad caressing my mom. A tear fell down in my dad’s eye making me believe that I’m really gone. That is the reason why they can’t see me and why they can’t hear me. I love them so much. I will just be happy for them. Even if it’s hard. Because now, I’m just a lost soul.
~AdminBigBoss😍
