22/06/2025
Walking Beside My Son: A Father's Journey Through Autism
I never imagined fatherhood would take me down this path. When my son was born, I held him in my arms and dreamed of his futureāteaching him how to ride a bike, hearing him call me "Dad," watching him make friends and grow into his own person.
But life had something different in store.
At around two years old, we noticed the signsāhe wasnāt talking, avoided eye contact, and had strong reactions to things that didnāt seem to bother other kids. At first, I thought, Maybe he's just a little behind. But deep down, I knew something was different. The day we received the diagnosisāautism spectrum disorderāit hit me like a tidal wave.
I wonāt lie. I was scared. I felt helpless. I even asked, Why him? Why us? But once the dust settled, I looked at my son, still the same beautiful, curious boy I loved more than anything, and I made a promise: I will never give up on you.
The journey hasnāt been easy. We've faced sleepless nights, financial stress, countless therapy sessions, and days filled with frustration and uncertainty. Iāve watched him struggle with things that most people take for grantedāmaking friends, handling loud noises, even just expressing how he feels.
There have been moments when I felt like I was failing. Moments I cried behind closed doors, questioning if I was strong enough for this. But every time he reaches for my hand, every time he makes eye contact or smiles at something that brings him joy, I know Iām exactly where Iām supposed to be.
Raising a child with autism has taught me to slow down and see the world through his eyes. Itās taught me to celebrate the small victoriesāhis first word, his first genuine laugh, the first time he hugged me without being asked. These moments may seem small to others, but to me, they are everything.
Iāve learned that love isnāt always loud or obvious. Sometimes itās quiet and steady, like the way he lines up his toys, or the way he rests his head on my shoulder after a long day. His love may not look the way the world expects, but itās realāand itās mine.
To other fathers out there walking this path: I see you. I know how heavy this can feel. But I also know the strength that lives inside youāthe strength to keep showing up, to keep loving without conditions, to keep fighting for your child every single day.
My son has changed my life in ways I never could have imagined. Heās made me a better man, a more patient father, and someone who sees beauty in places I never used to look.
And through it allāevery challenge, every breakthroughāIāve never stopped believing in him.
And I never will.