03/08/2024
A long post. Please bear with me.
Thank you for all the birthday greetings. I was just at my center the whole day finishing a 40-minute video as supplement to my written thesis, which I have submitted last month, as a requirement for my Voice Movement Therapy (VMT) training to be a qualified VMT practitioner (the first in our country and in Asia). This is besides the four case studies I have submitted a year ago.
As someone diagnosed with adult ADHD, I have to give my full attention in doing all these. That meant that I did not organize any sessions to keep me financially afloat to at least pay for my rent, food, electricity and internet connection (thus my silence also in social media). I just relied for any bookings from clients, which was not so frequent. And since I am not a writer nor a video editor (plus my ADHD), it took me a full 2 months to finish everything (this was a long due requirement that I should have submitted a year ago). But I survived these 2 months... really survived these 2 months with the grace of God.
Today, I finished the video, which I hoped to finish and submit yesterday as a gift to myself. But I was just too sleepy to make the final editing that needed to be done. I just can't find a way to submit this 2.28gb file to my teachers. If anyone would know a way for me to send this, I would appreciate your recommendation.
Those 2 months kept me seated most of the time and now I am feeling the effect of this with some uncomfortable feeling at my lower back, and my feet (particularly my left foot) being swollen. Thank God for magnesium oil 😊 (as I am writing this, I am actually standing up. I don't want to sit down yet 😄). I was telling myself that I need to go for an acupuncture, a massage or even go to a chiropractor to give my body the relief that it needed. But I have to wait to get back on my feet to do sessions again. It might take me some days or weeks for me to go back to my "regular programming". (Would anyone want to give it as a gift? 😉)
But for now, I am just so happy and so proud of myself to be able to do what I have done. This is a big accomplishment for me as I have always felt that I could not finish a task or a project that I have started (an ADHD symptom). I am just so grateful to discover this part of me and for doing this all by myself.
Being "alone" also for these 2 months, made me reflect on many things and discover the gem that I have become. I am loving myself more and more. The words of my teachers for my written thesis gave me more confidence and belief in myself...
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"Brava, dear Yeyette, brava. What a beautiful piece of work you have made, what beautiful reflections of birthing beauty in the midst of dark and unknown times, what beauty you made and offered to the world... This is you, the Yeyette who manifested at the end of your performance piece on the trainiing is indeed the you that has so much love and light to offer and share with people. This is wonderful work. Well done!!!!"
"Dear Yeyette, This is a truly beautiful and profound piece of work. I offer you not only my approval as final Training Reader, but also my congratulations and appreciation. Well done!"
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I breath these all in, and breath out with love and gratitude. Now I celebrate my birthday with a simple meal with myself. Tomorrow I celebrate with my family with a simple gathering. I celebrate the 58 years that was, as I look forward with excitement, joy and gladness, the journey to 59th.
Love to you all.
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P.S. If anyone would be interested to know more about Voice Movement Therapy, I am thinking of having a "by donation" session anytime this August. Please just comment here or message me if you are. Thank you.
