09/04/2026
I arrived in the South of India for a special pilgrimage with Guruji, Swamiji, where I would shave my head. I was still nervous, not sure if I would go through with it. The last time I tried, I chickened out.
The ego is a strong thing. It clings to your image and identity. One day my mind told me shaving my head was the right step for detachment. The next, it told me true detachment was letting go of the idea itself. The ego can argue from both sides.
After arriving, I felt an immediate sense of peace. Maybe it’s the energy of the ancient temples. Maybe it’s the presence of Swamiji. Maybe it’s both.
The next day, I went to Arulmigu Mariamman Temple, where thousands shave their heads to cleanse Vasanas, the subconscious tendencies that shape our behavior and perception.
Especially the Malina Vasanas, impure patterns that strengthen the ego, fuel desires, and keep us stuck in cycles.
I thought I would cry when they shaved my head. I didn’t. I felt at peace.
We visited ancient temples, places filled with history, silence, and presence.
Then came my puja.
After clearing the “bad” Vasanas, it was time to cultivate the Suddha Vasanas, pure tendencies that lead to clarity, inner peace, and growth.
My Sankalpa was clear: Integrity.
I’ve realized that in difficult moments, lack of integrity leads to choices I’m not proud of. If I strengthen it, I know I can stand firm and choose what is right over what is easy.
In a small village temple, surrounded by people I had never met, I held onto that one word: Integrity.
After the ceremony, we shared Prasad and a meal at a farm. I was received with a level of warmth that is hard to explain.
Indian hospitality is something you feel. Pure intention. Genuine kindness.
Driving back that night, one thing stayed with me: kindness.
Maybe that’s what it’s all about.
Integrity and kindness. The cultivation of the right Vasanas.
Now it’s time to go back into the world. Renewed. Clear. Focused on becoming better.
“Live with passion, but always keep your word. Integrity is everything.”
