25/07/2024
Yesterday completed the end of year one of my midwifery training. A pause to reflect and recharge plus some quality time with my loved ones.
When I arrived home from a long shift last night, I was greeted by party poppers, champagne, a banner made by my children, and warm cake for dinner!
I couldnât do this without them. My family. They are the reason Iâm on this path and why I can and will get through.
Thereâs been a lot of tears- happy and sad.
The happy tears are for every occasion I say goodbye to a family after a positive birth experience. We hug as we celebrate the powerful arrival of new life, their new addition. When I say positive, I mean one where the women and family feel listened to, in control of the experience and given the options to weigh up what feels right. Whether itâs been a water birth, a physiological birth on land on all fours, an epidural and vaginal delivery or a caesarean birth.
I cry happy tears for the gorgeous midwives young and old that I get to work alongside who take the time to support and care unconditionally for women and families. The midwife that takes a seat on the end of the bed to talk therough a difficult circumstance even when she has 8 other beds to contend to and a long, hectic shift ahead.
I cry sad tears out of frustration of the burnout, exhaustion and fatigue I witness with so many midwives. The effect that has on us as students learning in practice and the lack of good quality care and information given to service users. I cry over the culture of midwifery, the long hours, lack of breaks, pressure, lack of support. I despair of the debt that so many newly qualified midwives carry to start the profession, to live in this expensive city and repay the loans, taking on bank shifts and long days to the detriment of their mental health and wellbeing.
More and more I recognise the importance of midwives and doulas working closer together to support women, birthers and families in and outside the hospital setting.
Itâs teamwork with clients at the heart of the care where midwives and doulas can also support each other.