12/08/2023
[Humans of Med YLL - Jared Ng, House Officer]
"It’s been repeated to me many times that you will eventually fail in Medicine, be it academically or some other way that you feel that you have failed and that it’s okay."
It took me at least a few years to realise that a lot of failures are not exactly always within your control. Once you learn that you're not responsible for every single factor, you become more comfortable with facing your failures. You then reassure yourself that at the end of the day, you can learn from the mistakes and move on. Things may not be within your control but you can control how you react to things.
There is a series of reels on the NUS Medicine Instagram account published in 2022. Being quite interested in family medicine, one video that stuck with me was of a then resident, Dr Rachel Lu (I was quite fortunate to eventually meet her during my geriatrics posting). In the video, I recalled her saying that for the FM residency exit exam - “Even the best of us fail the (Masters of Medicine) exam time and time again”. It’s been repeated to me many times that you will eventually fail in Medicine, be it academically or some other way that you feel that you have failed and that it’s okay. I hold this inevitability quite dear to me. It’s a kind of inspiration that keeps me going forward, and gives me the assurance that it's okay to fail. Just because you fail once doesn’t mean that you are a failure. So shout out to her for doing the interview and inspiring other medical students like me.
In NUS, we also have a very long and strong culture of senior-junior teaching. What our seniors have given to us, we ought to pay forward to our juniors. These became my motivations to step in to help my juniors. During my holidays after MBBS, I received several texts from juniors trying to seek some advice after their end of year examinations. I recalled messages such as “I don't know what to do” and “I feel so overwhelmed right now”. For most of the juniors, it was their first failure in school. I've been there too - I’ve also had my share of academic trouble during medical school. I could understand how it feels like to be super lost and overwhelmed when you have to deal with a failure of this magnitude.
My first response was to ask them to find help directly from the M3 seniors, but I realised that the M3s were sitting for their year-end exams; the M4s were on electives, and so the best group of people were the M5s who were available to help. I started reaching out to my batchmates and created a Telegram Channel for this. Over Telegram, we would give advice on how to prioritise their workload and how to cope with this setback. The M5s checked in on them to ensure they were feeling better and providing assurance that everything would be ok. There were other M2s who actually reached out and asked if they could help their batchmates who were sitting for supps to teach the content. The reviews of the support this group of M2s had received was good so I am quite happy about that.
***My MedSoc Journey***
Acads isn’t the only place you can fail *laughs*, such as in the setting of a student organisation, specifically MedSoc which I was involved in throughout my medical school years.
Reflecting back on my time in , the level of involvement of the seniors make it quite unique as a student organisation. There’s a continuity of roles, like how the roles of president and vice president are nowadays almost always M4s. We’ve a proper pipeline for succession so that a lot of the initiatives can be sustained. There's always a lot of work that goes on behind the scenes to make sure that the events can run successfully again without the seniors being present to lead. Seniors with key appointments would need to graduate and wouldn’t always be there to provide guidance to the juniors. We should help the lower Ms gain more experience and eventually take over the reins of the more senior positions.
(Starting out,) I was unofficially helping out with MedSoc in M1, where I was the photographer for Medsoc events. My first event that I covered for was Medicamp. I thought that it was quite fun to be involved in Medsoc related things and I just helped out. It was in M2 when I felt that I might be interested in contributing to MedSoc activities and signed up for the careers directorate.
I thought about running for Public Relations (PR) Director in M3, but I was scared as I didn’t want to run for something that I didn’t have experience with. So I decided to join the PR directorate to learn the ropes and ran for director role in M4. For PR, we are really the face of MedSoc beyond the individual exco members like the president or vice-president. PR is also a tool for community building and identity formation. By using the publicity tools under PR, we can shape an idea of the Medicine community. Since we are part of such a spread out community in NUS, we need to be able to give a common identity through the content that we publicise. One such example would be HOMY (Humans of Med YLL), which started off with the tagline: “stories worth telling”. It's not about the backstories of people with a lot of achievements from NUS Medicine that we wanted to publicise. Even though we should celebrate these people, it creates a skewed image that people are always spectacular in medicine with so many accomplishments. I just wanted to share more stories about getting to know (ordinary) people like you and I better. Through their stories, HOMY works like a community builder to understand the people who are part of our Medicine family. I guess one of my main takeaways from MedSoc is that to drive change in medicine, you need a lot of people to push things forward. With HOMY, my predecessor faced challenges with it. But now with sufficient manpower, we are able to have weekly posts and I feel that's a great start to continue the efforts of bringing stories to the community.
I was inspired by Chong Boon, the 72nd Medsoc President, who once said that if we are unsure of what MedSoc should be doing, we should think of what the students need. I hope that Medsoc continues to be a place where students get the opportunity to learn about leadership. You can say that Medsoc helps to create a common ground amongst various groups in the medical community - students, junior doctors and senior doctors.
I think that the first step as to giving back is to understand. Before you do something, you need to understand who you are as a person and how the things that you do fit into what you want to actualize. For me, it's been about interacting with people in all the publicity roles I've taken up. I realised that my brain works differently but it gives me certain strengths, just like how everyone's viewpoint is unique. This helped me think of different ways to improve the way we connect and engage with the community and the public. It also made me think of how we can share more about the interesting events and lives of the people around us. On the idea of sustainability, I continued with MedSoc for this long because it's meaningful and resonates with me. I also enjoyed how one can publicise things differently, how to tell a story and how to communicate properly. So the main thing is sustainability, because it’s a main principle in MedSoc to make sure that people take over. Sustainability also comes in terms of finding a good team to help push the initiatives forward. On the idea of giving back, it’s also important not to burn out, to be able to sustain yourself and know when it is the maximum you can give.
- Jared Ng, House Officer
(This interview was done during HO orientation. Jared has since become a HO, we wish him all the best for his future endeavours)
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Interviewed by: Wong Hui Jie (Co2026), Elna Soon (Co2026)
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