23/09/2025
What do Korean dramas, running on the treadmill, and carrying the ache of something left behind have in common?
They are all the processes I found myself going through this morning.
With Korean dramas, I often watch the first few episodes, then skip ahead to the finale. I am too impatient to sit through the in-between. I need to know how it ends. Sometimes I circle back to the episodes I missed, but the feeling is never the same. The story has already leapt forward in my mind, and it is difficult to experience it with fresh eyes again.
Running is another process altogether. I honestly hate it. I would much rather play a sport, skip rope, or jump on a trampoline. But running is the most efficient way for me to train my heart and lungs. Being Singaporean, efficiency matters, so the treadmill has become my frenemy. I watch the numbers on the screen tick down, hoping time will move faster, grimacing through each passing second. To ease the torture, I balance my phone on the treadmill and lose myself in a K-drama, letting the story soften the grind of the run.
And then, there is the weight of absence. This process cuts the deepest. I know that things come and go in different phases of our lives, yet it is still painful. Tears welled as I ran, grief mixing with sweat. C’est la vie. I remind myself to learn from this, to hold on more carefully, and to carry forward what I can.
Processes. Some are to be savoured, like taking in the full beauty of a drama rather than skipping ahead. Some are to be endured, like running, with its soreness and discipline that strengthen me for the long run. Some, like loss, must simply be lived through, even when they are heavy.
Healing too is a process. It asks for patience, for time, for gentleness toward oneself. And though it may not come quickly, it does come. Like the closing scene of a drama or the final seconds of a run, there will be a moment when I look back and realise I have moved further than I thought. There will be lightness again, and with it, the strength to begin anew.
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