22/12/2025
Eulogy to 2025
Healing is messy, unpredictable, ugly and mostly always deeply bloody...to the bone. There is no real instruction manual for the highs, the lows, the longing or the unspoken truths.
Meeting the Bone Mother, face to face taking off the armour and let trembling and truth meet at my broken feet.
Healing is not favoured to the rich or great but to the soul brave enough to bleed, to ugly cry, to break apart, again and again. To die over and over again, to eventually be rebirthed into something new. SomeOne new. Not in fanfare, no performance, only unchattered and new. Every vein that bleeds out making space for a lush vine, fertile and wildly free. It trails all the way up and all the way down. Rich, fertile and bearing fruit.
Every day.....the longing, searching, seeking, asking, praying, pleading....please make it stop....and then there...not far...here at my feet I find it....one more lost bone...one last missing note. I gather them one and all. Not long now....standing next to Laloba in the peacy dusk and the purple dawn....singing MY BONES all back to life, in love letters to the unconditional love of all that is....
2025....you were Magnificent! You showed me, ME. You showed me just how broken, whole, messy, cluttered, lost, and deeply beloved I am.... even sometimes a little delusional.....me believing in fairy tales....now I know they are only tales....told and written by our own hand in deep living....
And in writing this I see that God, Source, the Mother of all Mothers....the earth, the depths of Shadow, the Sacred Heart of this Universe loved so Unconditionally that even in my weakest moments you are here and I, the small minute, tiny human grain of sand is deeply, honestly seen, openly held and beloved. Never alone. Never unheld, never left to my own, sometimes, deeply destructive......you let me in....my free will...ever waiting for me to truly see the magnificent life force running through me. Love reflected in the eyes of a Soulsister....a message from a Friend...a client....just another Human....broken and so very whole.
You were at my first breath of life...the One where you my Source saying that you will stand next to me until I see....and then one day....receiving the last exhale of my humanness....you will still be here...next to me...my Soul...close....and I agreed. A trust so deep...not broken...but sure, safe and secure.
So this is my eulogy...my speech...my announcement...2025...your were Extra-ordinary...Unexpected....Broken and Whole...all at once...and in Divine Timing. No force...no expectation...only time...only space...letting me figure it out...what living...truly being alive, means. Soft, in Amazing Grace. You let me live...you let me fall....you let me be....untill I see...
I Bow in Reference to this year....2025...because even though at times I felt so broken and that I utterly and completely failed at life....Your eyes are on the sparrow and I know You watches over me.
Asante Sana, Namaste and Amen.
E-luna