08/12/2024
I’ve debated whether to say this experience here, but if one person can know they’re not alone. It’ll be worth it to me.
I still struggle with my anxiety in large crowds.
Even with all I know, my body still wants me to GET OUT when surrounded by lots of people.
Here’s an experience from just this weekend:
August 9, 2024
“While going to the county fair today, the feelings of anxiety were extremely present. I found myself being scared at every little thing, guessing that I was just scared of getting in trouble or getting yelled at. After coming home and “just dealing” I was on edge with my kids, I sat at my kitchen table pondering what was REALLY going on. As I got quiet with myself,
I realized I was ANXIOUS ABOUT BEING ANXIOUS
around people when I’m SUPPOSED to be the one who’s figured anxiety out.
I felt like an imposter.
But I did figure it out, I spoke the truth that Leaders go first, I can use these types of experience not to violate my knowledge to be able to help others but validate it. Of course, I can help people with social anxiety, I get it, of course I can empathize with others, I get that to. I, however, will not allow my thoughts to turn to me being worthless, or less than or wishing I was someone else. I have been given this weakness to become strong which allows me to be able to help others.”
After recognizing there was a gift through all the pain and anxiety I was feeling, I reconnected to myself and the peace was surreal.
I was able to go to the county fair again the very next day and I’m happy to report ZERO ANXIETY with us being at the fair even longer than the day before.
So if you’re feeling like you SHOULD have your anxiety figured out, please understand you are not alone.
We can do this together.
If this situation feels familiar to you, dm me the word, “I get it” and let’s connect so you can find peace too.