04/06/2025
Tap into the feminine, they said.
Find yourself a man or lover who holds that “masculine space”, so you can spread out and flourish, they said.
Someone who allows you the space to feel comfortable in your own skin.
A man you don’t have to mother, who’s emotionally in tune with himself, you, and his surroundings.
The problem with this messaging?
It’s focused on another person, and communicating somehow that the key to unlocking our wisdom is dependent on another.
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In the beginning of 2024, I had several trainings come to me. I love to learn, it can be an expensive addiction, but there’s worse things, right? I enjoy circling up with a group to study, analyze, process and dive deep together.
The training, and subsequent journey, I ended up choosing to embark on, wasn’t my typical choice. It wasn’t something to intentionally add to my skillsets or make myself more marketable as a practitioner or business owner.
It was a journey into myself, where I created space to make art again…just for the sake of making art.
I was asked to spend time in nature connecting, listening and journeying with allies I didn’t even know I had.
At the beginning I was skeptical. “I don’t need a training for that.”
Turns out, I did. And what I found was through some regular practice connecting with nature and creativity, my connection with myself and my love for the community I have grew bigger than any romantic love I’ve ever experienced.
I became whole in a whole new way, my values and inner voice so loud that I actually can’t ignore them now. I can’t force myself into alignment with something that is 95% right. I need 100%
I was reminded that my divine feminine power is in community.
It is in personal connections.
It’s in being a mother, and an individual.
Nature is louder now. Eagles crying in the morning and geese gently honking at night.
Ponderosa, yarrow sprigs, worms in the fresh rain, spiders scuttling out of hibernation and hummingbirds returning from the south.
When I’m present with these things, I’m present with my wisdom, my voice and my actions. I can witness the richness of life with gratitude and be in a strong, feminine space, all on my own.