07/27/2021
"At the root of trauma was a lack of choice + a need to betray ourselves to cope."
Trauma occurs when we have no choice. Where we have to deny or betray parts of who we are to gain the love, approval, + validation from the people we were dependent on for survival.
We go through life as wounded children in adult bodies. The pattern of self betrayal was an attempt to protect us. To get the love we needed. The issue is, we don’t trust ourselves. We don’t even know ourselves. So many of us have been performing, playing roles, hurting ourselves (many of these ways are socially accepted or admired like ‘workaholism,’ chronic busyness, or self neglect through putting everyone else’s needs first.
Choice creates healing.
Small conscious choices.
Waking up 10 minutes early to journal, placing that boundary, deciding you’re going to put on headphones + dance around the house. Choices just for you.
The more choice, the more our inner child begins to relax. Where there’s choice, there is trust.
We have to show up over + over again for that inner child to witness that someone (us) is now there to keep them safe