09/15/2025                                                                            
                                    
                                                                            
                                            JUST WANTED TO SHARE A SHARE WE HAD AT ONE OF OUR WHLV IN-HOUSE MEETING. THIS RESIDENT CELEBRATED HIS FRIST BIRTHDAY IN  AWHILE SOBER. HE RECEIVED A TEXT FROM A FRIEND FOR HIS BIRTHDAY ASKING HIM HOW HE FELT ABOUT NOT DRINKING. THE RESIDENT READ ALOUD THIS RESPOND TO HIS FRIEND IN THE MEETING.
 I HOPE THIS INSPIRES SOMEONE OUT THERE TO CONTINUE THEIR JOURNEY OF SOBRIETY 
Lol. Ok. Yes I am. I have almost daily resentments that I can't drink again.  I want to get fu**ed up and escape the daily stressor. Decompress, blow off steam,  get a little crazy.  But like I just said.  Real talk,  I don't just want to have a few drinks and relax. I want to get fu**ed up.  And that's the problem. Because getting fu**ed up one day for me i know will lead to getting fu**ed up tomorrow. And the next and the day after.  And real quick.  Ill be downing a bottle in 4-5 hours then passed out. Only to wake up at 1 am to p**s in the corner and take a couple double shots only wanting to pass back out.  And spend my life unconscious because life and the world suck and depression and add massive amounts of liquid depressants hoping that will make it better.  And it doesn't and never will.  But when you're in that active addiction depression downward spiral gravity well. There's no way out and no bottom.  Just waiting for death but at the same time trying to avoid it clinging to hold on grasping at straws just trying to hold everything together by a thread. 
So yes I don't always enjoy being sober.  But the alternative is pathetic and not just physical death which won't happen quickly and will include an incredible amount of suffering but philosophical death.  A living death. A different type of living nightmare you can't wake up from.