08/11/2023
This one takes a second. Let the words really sink in.
It has taken me years to embody this statement and I still find myself looking for reassurance from everyone BUT myself.
It is a habit formed in childhood, but it is just that, a habit. Once you truly grasp that everything you experience comes from within, it is so empowering!
I was actually terrified when this realization washed over me in full force. I was angry and confused. HOW could this be true and if that really is the case, I actually don’t love myself well AT ALL!! I had to evaluate all my thoughts and self judgement…there was soooo much negativity! I had to start out small. I realized that in my mind, I treated myself terribly. There was no kind friendly voice of love telling me I was okay, telling me it was okay not to be perfect. It was the opposite! I would say things like, “What is wrong with you?!?! Why do you keep making such horrible mistakes! You are so stupid!”
I understood that if I spoke to myself this way, how could I possibly expect others to feel any different? My core vibrational energy was, 80 percent of the time, in a frequency of self-hatred and unworthiness.
This was my creation. I was desperate for love and connection because I never gave it to myself. 🤯
It has been a journey of self-discovery and being conscious of when I am telling myself degrading things. It is a practice of being present, in the now moment. IT IS A PRACTICE. As much as I wanted the change over night, my negative self-talk was a well worn neural pathway that I could easily sink back into.
I LOVE ME. I love who I am. I love myself with all my flaws and human-ness.
If this is how I can feel about someone else, I CAN feel this way about myself. In fact I already do, we ALL already do. We have just covered the natural feelings of love with our need for perfection.
Let it go. Love YOU. Love your imperfections. Take the journey, I can tell you first hand, it is worth every step. YOU are worth every step.
If you take this journey, I promise the rewards are magic!
Teach yourself how to best love yourself and watch how others follow suit.
I love you. 💕