02/14/2026
I wanted to share what sacred and beautiful moments we can experience in our lives when we have the courage to work on ourselves; when we have the courage to become embodied into our best, most present and congruent self.
Yesterday, I got to spend time with Holli in her most vulnerable state, lying down and sleeping. Horses are prey animals so they spend very little time lying down, and even littler time in REM sleep. They can only enter REM sleep when they are lying on their side.
Although horses can and will lay down in the same space with you, I’ve learned over time that it is a huge honor when they trust you to be right next to them in this state.
When Holli eventually laid down all the way and went to sleep when I was sitting next to her, she communicated to me that she trusted me with her life. That she trusted me in that moment to be her protector. (And if you know Holli, you know how significant this is for her).
I’m still not sure how to put into words how beautiful it felt to know that our relationship reached a point where Holli sees me in that way. I do not take that honor lightly. It requires deep trust, safety and knowing to surrender into that level vulnerability with another being.
Holli and I didn’t get to this experience and level of trust and vulnerability over night though. It took time to build our relationship to this. We’ve had plenty of ups and downs, miscommunications, ruptures and repairs. It also took time and effort for me to become this version of myself.
I also know that horses, esp. Holli, are sensitive to energy. You cannot fake anything, hide or lie to a horse. This is why building relationships with horses are so powerful. You have to be willing to grow, face yourself, and learn to show up as your true self, fully embodied.
This moment with Holli showed me what happens when we do the inner work to become the best version of ourselves. Since you can’t fake stillness, peace or safety, you have to BE it in mind, body and soul authentically. If I wasn’t embodied fully in a presence of peace and safety, if this wasn’t what Holli was experiencing in relationship with me, she would have never laid down, let alone gone to sleep, with me right next to her.
I recognize what an honor it is for a horse to choose vulnerability with you, and I’m feeling so grateful for it. I don’t think I’m anything special though. Anyone can have this experience. But it is not about the horse, it is about YOU! You have to become safe and present in yourself so that the horse is able to sense it and know it is the truth (and same is true for any other relationship- with our partners, families, kids, friends, colleagues). This takes time, effort and commitment to doing this work on ourselves.
Even though I had this incredible moment and connection with Holli, it doesn’t mean we still won’t have hardships to navigate in the future or that this will happen all the time now. I’m sure there will still be plenty of times I don’t show up as my best self and she doesn’t either. However, I know we will also continue to have moments full of joy and connection with each other too. And that hopefully these experiences will become more and more prevalent knowing the foundation in our relationship is now at this level: secure, safe and trusting.
I also appreciate my Dusty Boots Barn Equine Services crew who held the space for this. Although you can’t see them, they were in the space with us. This is the power of community and safety in our herd of humans and horses- Holli clearly felt safe with our entire team too, not just me.
And…. because it is Valentine’s Day today, a day that is about relationships, I will say the most beautiful, powerful, secure and healthy relationships require us to learn how to BE our best selves first, so that we can then create it with others ❤️💫 this is why healthy relationships require self-work in addition to working on the relationship itself 😉. We can only be for others what we can be for ourselves.
P.s. this experience also showed me that Holli snores 😅😂 Happy Saturday, everyone!