04/11/2023
Lunch break today consisted of lying in the sun with a puppy, a little meet n greet with the resident goats, a garter snake sunning itself and a woodchuck out for an afternoon stroll.
Sometimes I think it would be more āprofessionalā to go back to keeping an office in townā¦a more āclinicalā setting, if you will. Having clients out to the farm for their care is definitely less professional, more messy (the dirt road, the occasional chicken, the home environment). Maybe āhomeā is not where my work belongs.
Yes, I do doubt myself, Iām basically the same as everyone else.
And then I remember. Pain does not happen solely in a sterile, clinical setting. Pain is not linearā¦nor does it happen in a vacuum. Pain is holistic, spherical, with te****les that can encroach upon every facet of our lives.
I know, because Iāve lived it myself. And Iāve learned a few things.
Sometimes itās not just āshoulder paināā¦there may also be a te****le of approaching empty-nesthood, which brings into stark relief the fact that your relationship with your partner needs redefining or completing.
The knee pain thatās been your constant companion on your jogsā¦that pain could have its source in a hip that misaligned when your youngest was born. And then your youngest had colic, which kicked off your postpartum depression. Which, as some of us know, is absolute hell.
Usually, itās not *just* pain.
Because we are not just bodies.
We are made up of all things messy, twisty and turny, ups and downs, past/present/future, dark, bright and alarmingly beautiful. We are our obligations to others *and* to ourselves. We are our hopes, dreams, fears and magick.
We *all* have magick.
And now that I really stop to think about it, one of the really cool things about caring for my clients out here on the farm is that I can SEE your magick so much faster than I could at my office in town. I can see the holistic you-ness that permeates even your pain.
Because you arenāt just a body. You are āØyou āØ.
I know, because I have been there. And I still am. I still live through every day, just like everybody else. The days of giving myself pep talk after pep talk to keep going, keep trying, keep doing as much good as I can with the resources I haveā¦those days still happenā¦but they are less frequent and more productive because of everything Iāve learned.
Maybe the only difference between you and me is that Iāve learned a few things in my own journey through many kinds of pain and Iāve learned how to help others learn it too.
Iāve learned some techniques that have helped me move through pain a bit more swiftly with a bit more ease. Iāve learned how self-compassion is integral to our healing. And Iāve learned that when you do not yet possess self-compassion, you can borrow it from others until you have your own. Iāve learned how our connection with our Earth is central to our own grounding and wellbeing and Iāve learned how to foster that connection in myself and others. Iāve learned some things about fueling our physical bodies appropriately so our mental and emotional selves stay vibrant as well. Iāve learned how to (mostly) stay out of othersā drama and maintain an open, growth-oriented mindset.
Is it perfect? Hell no. Itās a mess. And thatās life. A beautiful mess. Some days less beautiful, some days more. For me, today was more beautiful. Yesterday was not. See? A lot like you.
And I guess, after all, having my office out here at the farm is damn appropriate. Itās where Life happens. Itās where Hope happens. And there is Beauty to be seen every day when you know where to look. And you, my beautiful friend, deserve all of that Life, Hope and Beauty.
So, if you want help seeing your magick, feeling more ease and hope, grab my hand. Send me a message. Or just give me a call. We can be real together.