02/06/2019
Namaste Friends! Today is a special anniversary for me. Two years ago on an airplane from Sydney, Australia to Los Angeles I made the descion to never drink alcohol again. I had already been weaning myself off while on a spiritual adventure through Nepal, India, and Bali for the month prior to this descion. I was never a "big drinker", but in the previous year after experiencing a divorce and great loss after losing my sweet dog, Love, who was my child, I decided to "experiment" with drinking. I had been married to an alcoholic so I never really drank in the 10 years we were together, as my way of setting an "example". Well, after being so desperate for a way out of that toxic marriage and experiencing great loss and grief of my sweet baby, I started to have some drinks every now and then. At the same time, I got back on my mat and dove straight back into my practice, and even started my 200 hour Teacher Training. The two seemed like a terrible pairing. In fact, I remember going to a class once after having margaritas with a friend. WTH? Bad descion. As I went down the road of drinking, I realized how much I was using it: to sleep; to numb out my anxiousness of being truly alone for the first time in decades; to fill space when I didn't know what else to do with myself; to be social. You get the point. Well, two years ago today I made the descion that it was time to break up with alcohol. To make the descion to truly live the life of a Yogi. Clean eating, no alcohol, and walking and speaking my truth. I am lucky. I am not an addict. I don't have cravings. I never think about having a drink. But, I am in a beautiful relationship with a recovering alcoholic who made the descion to become sober a week before I did, while I was in India. To not drink is an easy descion when I know its not only my life that it affects. I know I could drink socially and he would be ok. But, to know that not only am I honoring the commitment to myself, but I am also supporting him and honoring the commitment he made to himself, makes it an even more right descion. So to celebrate, I am on day 2 of a green juice cleanse! Feeling better about my drink of choice today!❤️