07/04/2022
Happy July 4th, yall!
I know, still no videos. But I do want to expand and do more events that are geared toward a sort of a fair-like experience for everyone to have fun. I believe and especially after 2020, hanging out, while staying productive are desirable ways to live. In my opinion, I believe as Adults we can do just that, but we can actually learn to take from the social experience in such a way that leaves our spiritual being preserved.
Who else feels when they engage in social situations it doesn't feel all that great? There could be a ton of reasons why it could happen; someone may be domineering in a conversation; the group seems to know each other already and are able to carry the convo so well they seem to do over you; there may feel a lot of pressure of peers. they are fine and are totally receptive, but you still feel out of place. Being human is to understand what it truly means to be complex. We always assume we are the only ones that are complex, but rather on the contrary. We just know ourselves to have the cognitive ability, in our own way that could still communicate to others, to intake our experience.
No, what I preach isn't happiness, as I do actually believe that it's not the way I'd want to be by default. It's true! My best friend said it best when she said, "The best way to be is indifference." In my head, I thought of that statement as not to care much for any outcome. She illustrated to me that in not caring about the situation so much, you allow it the freedom to be as it is, which is a form of acceptance and this form provides the pathway one would be willing to assist.
Either way, we set a precedent that we need to be a certain way in order for us to accept who we are, whether that's in the moment or how we've been for a while. She also demonstrated too that we can still care and how we display that is by reflecting back on the person we care for. These actions can be as small as asking about how their job, career, project, or other is going; to investing an interest in that of the others and providing some element of support for them through that. All of which these actions would come from a genuine place, not to be conjured up to manipulate someone into a friendship.
I feel at the beginning of all this social interaction, I was missing the framework from which all that generosity and enthusiasm stems. Myself. And not to get too cliche, the way in which I decided this path was the correct one was because I noticed my very being was starved of those things. I had neglected to feed myself in the way I knew how and the reasons for why take it deeper.
Not having a place for myself to feel safe being myself really kept all my gratitude in, using fear of projection and delusion as the bodyguards securing me in my shell. I wanted so badly a place I could feel comfortable being myself so I can feel around and figure out what I liked, then I realized. I was being silly.
The earliest time in my life I had felt the way I was looking for was when I was 13, on a chat site that worked perfectly for my iPod. This site was filled with individuals and bots, trolls, and everything that pretty much exists on the Internet today as things you'll find on social networks. People typed out their actions and they made themselves writeable characters to illustrate what they would do if they were all in a physically neutral space. Every thing written out were super simple, low effort, despite the impression this website were full of writers or something. It was far from that. It was literally just a chat site. This was where I allowed my imagination to flourish. I used to write really good quips that brought into reality the sensation I was actually there. I had enough time to be alone as a kid that escaping in the mind felt no different in real life to me. The only difference is, that you can survive the mistakes you make in your mind for the most part, at least.
My point to this is that we as adults have been the most liberated in any of our history to have the access to information today. We can learn about religion, we can learn about beliefs, we can learn about technicalities, and we can learn about practical specifics. We have the world in our hands, and they are our phones with unlimited data ( for those of you who have a phone plan like that ). We shouldn't be creating words, we should be searching for words that exist that best fit our intention. Then if we can't find one, take all the knowledge we can and dedicate that to true effort in crafting that new word. Making words to add to language should be a respectable practice, not a messy dichotomy, that of ill-communication skills and the impatience to make time for oneself to learn more. And there are more ways and directions things can go as to why we remain deeply unhappy, those I mentioned being a few. We must make our minds the space where we can be safe so other places do not threaten our security.
I believe cultivating healthy access to our imagination is the pinnacle to maintaining indifference, the true security of our psyche. We have to have a dojo to exercise our muscles and get them in peak condition, which is why sports have been such a strong source of entertainment for years. We, humans, need social interaction forms of exercise. What's needed for us to exercise comes first from the well-being of our souls. What do we seek? What are we afraid of? Where should we start? When should I go?
Etiquette; How should everyone speak to each other if we are all strangers? What is rude, what is polite? What are the actions and behaviors that demonstrate maintenance of mental moderation; for example, when has the situation stepped out of control and am I aware of the choices I can make depending on what I intend to experience with this group? and most importantly why, why, why is it this way and why does, should it, or doesn't it matter to me? etc.
When there's rules of conducting ourselves, the space we interact with will truly be that, space, while keeping awareness of ourselves too. We have changed as people and how we interact with each other. Since this is all on the matter of my opinion, I should also share from political to spiritual to scientific, these all are becoming dogmatic and this is crucial to mend the ways in which we share our space so we can live harmoniously with the rapid changes that are underway. We have made huge strides in our history as well as taken steps back. We know we are in control and we now just have to be cognitive of our hearts, the parts of ourselves we hid from or can't find, heal that and we can do so with those that share similar pains in your community. You CHOOSE your community, by the way. And that community can affect more than you realize and that power is truly magnificent as it acts as a fuse.
I believe there are ways to cultivate your spirituality in your own style. This can lead down the exciting journey of exploration. I encourage everyone to look into thoughts and ideas they had denied before right now on your phones. Belief in ourselves starts by letting ourselves do what we want - without judgment. Nothing stays the same, consistent, true, or even false. The fluctuation of our information is like that of the fluctuation of life in any and every species and thing that exists. We too are an artform, we just need to find tools to refine them in ourselves, and we won't need the tools forever.
It starts with self-love, self-recognition, facing beliefs that clash with what we expect to experience bravely and seeing to your path to healing by embracing yourself as the audience member rooting for their favorite character to win the plot. Yes, it's okay to cheer ourselves on when we feel no one will. I know, I and others, have had people look down on us for doing good for ourselves, but I believe if they allowed themselves to pat themselves on the back during times it counted, they'd find love for themselves. I want people to find love for themselves, so they remember why they participate in the roles they select in life. It's always a choice, but we have elements of ourselves we can control that can bring us back to balance.
Starting today, I will accept free consultations for new Seekers consisting of an Overall Energy Reading. These will consist of the various tools I use to help you with what may be riding under the surface as the root for healing and growth. This isn't a medical health reading because I'm not licensed to offer mental or bodily health advice or diagnosis, this is more of an abstract psychic reading that deals with social elements for the Seeker and to figure out how to cultivate a spiritual relationship with oneself.
Back to what most of the message today meant to be about, I'll be opening up an Adult Only Server designed to be Mature, Sfw & Nsfw with an E-Sport-Centric focus. This Server will provide the experience of a lounge with themes geared toward Adult enjoyment, and this will be an excellent place for both sexes, work professionals, nerds, geeks, weeaboos & DnD crowd. I'll launch it on the 8th of August, so be on the lookout for updates on how access will be facilitated.
That does it for my message of what I have planned for you guys. I believe we deserve to have spaces sacred to adults and a healthy experience that can partake in some of the benefits and advantages to rule your own experience. Exploring our personality, dating, participating in E-Sports leagues, chilling by the cafe and working around like-minded individuals, and more. The videos are still coming, I'm just dealing with my anxiety with being in front of the camera. Thank you all so much for your patience!
