02/09/2024
Anniversary is a word that deserves more contemplation. I wish I consciously remembered the depth and weight of what it means every time I say it.
It’s easy to forget what it represents —365 days multiplied over the years. It’s choosing the same thing/person/action over and over everyday.
Ten years with you is a dream —it’s every thing.
3650 Days with you has marked days of every emotion. Days of joy, love, playfulness and true contentment mixed with days of pain, heartache, anxiety, fear, and disappointment.
Those are all the cost of admission to life and relationships. They’re unavoidable.
We have miscommunications, jealousy, annoyances, and let downs — and each and every time we do it’s okay because you and me have made ourselves family.
Neither of us moves out if we’re angry. In varying degrees of time we always lean into each other. We tell each other the things it’s hard to say outright, the things we’re embarrassed of, the things we think other people would judge us for and it’s gotten us to where we are. We’ve said things that have broken each other’s hearts.
It’s unfortunate but it’s been purposeful. We’ve communicated our needs and set boundaries which has formed the safety line that has allowed us to stay together for this long.
The person you love will inevitably say something that shatters your world if you stay in it long enough. Sometimes it’s a simple misunderstanding, maybe it’s choosing the wrong word, saying something at the wrong time, overlooking something or a difference in perspective.
Anniversaries are celebrations and yet this may not be coming across that way—but hear me out.
I can’t help but reflect on what we’ve overcome and how we’ve made it this far. Yes we’re celebrating love but loving you feels easy and I bet you feel the same. What I want you to remember year after year when this day rolls around is that even when life is scary or sad you’re not alone. Even if you’re mad at me you’ll always know where to find me —I’ll be by your side.
Thank you for holding my emotions safely, being eager to understand me better, letting me receive your thoughts and for spending the day recreating our very first dates. ❤️