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10/17/2024

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10/17/2024

I know that last post was a long one but I hope it helps those who needed to hear it.

I may not be the best person at putting together sentences but nobodies perfect.

I just wanted to say:

If you ever need to vent about ANYTHING. I mean it, ANYTHING. Our chats always open. We may not have posted in a bit but we’re ALWAYS here. It’s connected to our phones. What we here for if we ain’t here for each other. ✊

We’re in this together. This isn’t my page, it’s not the owners page, it’s OUR page. All of ours. Creator & Followers/Friends. This is a community of outcasts, outlaws, street kids, black sheep, extroverts, introverts & anything else you may be. If you feel like you’re NOTHING, well nothing is something here. Simple as that. Real as that.

It’s a page that’s here for a real reason. Come how you are. We’re not judging anyone. All aliens welcome. 🖤🖤

10/17/2024

Been awhile, wanted to say no matter how beaten you have been on your path to success you must keep going on. We fight on through our pain, stress & struggles. We are fighters in our own right. Whether you’re out there surviving, existing or focusing on your day today put all the bad behind you. Everyday is a new day to be the better person you were meant to be. Don’t let life get you down, man.

When I was younger I used to be a negative teenager. All the way until I was level 17 or 18.. I said no, no, no & no to anything. “You want to go here?” - “you want to help me out?” - “you want to be with family?”

I said no to it all. I didn’t even have to be depressed. 😔 nah my thing was I just didn’t want to do anything ever. I was content with being by myself. Well, I played a game with myself eventually because I loved analyzing my behavior & I liked learning others reactions. In some weird way I made it a little game to say “YES” to everything [in a positive way]…

My counselor has told me at a young age it’s amazing I was that self aware & learned how to do this because many people learn this later in life.. anyways, I say Yes to going anywhere, being with family or friends & helping out w/ chores or whatever. Yes replaced all my no’s.

Naturally, it became automatic. I didn’t have to think about it anymore. Was a natural response at that point. It actually just made me a positive person instead of being negative always. Maybe took a few months of saying Yes instead of “no we can’t, I can’t, I won’t, nope 🙂‍↔️”

Ever since then [roughly 20yrs ago] even through my addiction it helped me remain positive. I changed my entire persona & thought process. That dark cloud was no longer over me. It was a sunny day everyday.

We can change. We ALWAYS have that option, that choice, that way to make it okay. I’ve been to the darkest corners, steps & depths of that other place. Now I’m living how I want. I do what I want (in a healthy way)…

I post here and there not only to help others maybe grasp something out of what I said but to also help me get it out there.

I’m not going to say I don’t struggle. Everyone struggles. Everyone has pain. Everyone has anxiety. Everyone is just like you & I here.

We love unconditionally. We welcome all war stories. We may lose some battles but the war rages onward.

•Just like this picture below. A UFC Fighter: Khalil Rountree. He was beat up bad for 4 rounds & lost his fight & opportunity to claim the light heavyweight championship. Yet, he showed he has heart, he’s a warrior. He remains positive even in defeat. He isn’t letting it get him down & his after fight interview the crowd CHEERED him strongly because he showed positivity in a time so many people show negativity.

Be a warrior. One day at a time.

Before I go here’s a gem 💎

An old friend once told me:
“Do 1 thing for someone else, once a day. Don’t do it expecting anything in return. One chore for someone else, once a day will make you feel better about yourself”

I couldn’t tell you how true that is.

Rest Easy: Billy George. A true artist of sobriety.

Take care everyone.

12/07/2023

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I'm sharing this meme not for what the meme SAYS but for what the meme IMPLIES. I try to find different ways to connect to all people in a way that they'll understand my point of view. Nothings the same for anyone in life and they throw cookie cutter techniques for recovery at INDIVIDUALS🤔 I'm a chef by trade and I can tell you from writing thousands of recipes in my life that that's not a recipe for SUCCESS💯

This is an IMPOSSIBLE scenario, no one will ever offer you a billion to never have s*x again and the legal paperwork alone is crazy to think of 😂

But millions of people will share it and interact with it over and over again.

What do we call people that miss out in LIFE because they harped on so many impossible and improbable scenarios that they skip important experiences?

Overthinkers ( we even have a cute buzzword for being programmed)
SOCIAL ANXIETY? "What if this or that person is there or this happens? F**K EM, F**K IT, RIDE THAT WAVE IF YOU'VE GOT TO💯

NOT OUR FAULT WE ARE THE WAY WE ARE 💯
WEVE BEEN PROGRAMMED FOREVER
BUT ITS OUR JOB TO BECOME BETTER

But how many POSSIBLE scenarios are you missing in your life because you're so focused on IMPOSSIBLE scenarios

12/07/2023

They may even be the right people but constantly living in survival mode brings out the worst in anyone✊️ there's nothing in life that's black and white, learn the skills you need to decipher the inherently bad people from the ones that are in the same position as you and act accordingly 💯

12/05/2023

I stopped taking psychotropic medications about 18 months ago. I started this Alarm Clock system to help me prevent full blown episodes. When I say episodes I mean the 3 times a year you're dragged kicking and screaming into the BHU or a jail cell because that's how episodes end. I took 17 pills a day for years. They stabilized me enough to work through the bigger trauma issues in my life, but to the detriment of my self esteem and my self worth. My MANIA is a super power but TRAUMA is my kryptonite. They don't mix and when they do nothing good happens. Those medications killed my stomach , my liver(even more than I had), my drive, my passion , my creativity, my smile , my ability to care about or love anything, my libido and my s*xual function suffered immensely to the point of complete s*xual dysfunction, with a 50-80 lb weight gain attached to these overnight and more so than anything THEY TOOK WHO I WAS THEY STOLE MY IDENTITY. As a 30 year old man who's self esteem is trashed by these meds and life all around you is crumbling but you're about to go do some time and the easiest most shallow way fix all that even temporarily is to go f**k something and you can't even go F**K SOMETHING!!! 😡😡😡😵‍💫😵‍💫😵😵
YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF. 💯💯💯
In all the years of my extreme mental health struggles I've always been SELF DESTRUCTIVE maybe to the point of death in some cases but IVE NEVER BEEN SELF HARMING not while I was in the driver seat of my consciousness still at least . I never wanted to end my life more than I did at that point before I stopped taking my medications and it was a direct result of their side effects causing such a poor quality of human life for me.

As humans we're made to FIGHT,we're made to F**K,we're made to LAUGH, and we're made to LOVE♥️

Is there a medication that even with all the progress I made that I do still need yes but only 1 not 17

This is my story about psychotropic medications and the LITTLE things I try for my mental health daily that make a BIG difference.

The alarms are so important to me now everyday and the list grows all the time try it I'm begging you.

11/28/2023

This should say when MAN(mankind) gender doesn't discriminate how we feel and react💯 find your sense of meaning

11/27/2023

11/25/2023

Jail, prison , and rehab are not rock bottom. Wherever you were the second before you were there is rock bottom💯
That's step 1

11/25/2023

Whats up yall I'm El Jefe The 🐐 birth name Elton Michael Ellinger
Here's my story and another side to the recovery coin

My addiction issues in life immediately stem from MENTAL HEALTH and my strong desire to be THE PARTY not the life of the party but to be the actual party. I subconsciously worked my entire life towards having the ability to show anyone that comes in contact with me the best time ever. What that translated too was having exclusive accessibility to any and all drugs at all times in quanity even the hard to get one's I can just as easily get you a sheet of acid when you needed 5 doses, or get a 1/4 pound of co***ne when you needed a gram. I then snuck my up the ladder in the local hospitality industry as a young street minded kid because I needed access to restaurants, bars,hotels,and strip clubs. And boy do I have access to everything and anything in any city in upstate NY from Rochester down to Poughkeepsie the problem is once you make yourself that connected and successful it snowballs out of your control. You can't start saying NO when you've said YES for so long being consistent is the key to anything in life and I value consistency above most things in life and being one of my core values in life it becomes a personality trait. If nothing else I'm f**king consistent to the point where people that know me well enough will tell you Eltons going to have an episode this month this month and that month even my CRAZY is consistent. Now that you understand my motivation for ever being involved in the lifestyle I'm forever synonymous with I'll tell why that was detrimental to my mental health and substance use.

It's impossible to not use when you constantly have it. I've never needed a dollar in my pocket I've never needed to call and make a plan if I really want something I just gotta walk outside and I will have whatever i want and someone will be happy I've got it because I'm a value increaser if you hand me something you will gain more from it being in my hand than it would've been in your hand. At the end of the day all of this was just extended well thought out well planned and executed MANIPULATION. I just happen to manipulate the situation to benefit everyone instead of trying to get over on everyone which is rare in the drug world. It wasn't hard to separate myself from everyone else. Extended Manipulation. My manic episodes are intense and legendary but they're also my motivation, my creativity, my passion and my drive and I have no problem flying around "unhinged" because I have inert direction but my mania makes other people uncomfortable. Making people uncomfortable is not part of being THE PARTY it's the exact opposite. So my drug use over the years looked funny to people because Eltons not addicted to a specific substance, that changes like the weather. My drug seeking behavior comes from what I need to shut down the mania before people are uncomfortable by my intensity, the motor that my mouth really is , my POSITIVITY, my positivity makes people uncomfortable. I chase drugs that prevent me from reaching my full potential because someone around me is uncomfortable with my productivity. I've never harmed another human being in a manic episode and I've never given another human a reason to believe they were unsafe around me but just to avoid making a stranger or an acquaintance uncomfortable I'm going to get high I'm not a daily drug user and very rarely ever have been but I have struggled with my mental health daily for a long time. And it's not everyone else's responsibility to deal with my mental health. But I do feel like it's everyone else's responsibility to recognize productive and destructive episodes and treat me accordingly. The problem with that is they never will and it will ultimately be the reason I may never put drugs down forever. I want to so badly be a peer advocate as a career but I can't promise my sobriety and I hate a hypocrite. I put drugs down and they handed me 17 pills a day and said now you can start your recovery. 17 pills a day or I can smoke this 2 days a month or shoot this for 3 days or sniff that for 1 week depending on what's going on. My math says that's less drugs than you're telling me to take. But I was getting older and wanted to try to do what everyone told me I should do or I'm supposed to do but I was being told this by people without any of my issues and what I needed to do for them and that's weird to me. No one's the same there's no cookie cutter answer to any of this but they treat us like it is and this page was created to find alternatives to whatever the system tells us works but I've seen their numbers their sh*ts not working. But we working everyday on our mental health on our substance abuse community and support are all anyone needs and they need it until they're better.

Mental health and substance abuse are directly synonymous you can take the drugs away but that doesn't fix why you picked up the drugs.

11/18/2023

This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody. There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody’s job. Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn’t do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have.

WE REALLY HAVE A JOB TO DO AND COMMUNITY HAS NEVER BEEN SO BROKEN 💯