01/06/2024
The other night my body was in a lot of pain (womenâs issues) đ©žđ©žđ©žWhen the pain woke me up from sleep I was startled and began to lay into myself; âugh, you should have taken a Tylenol, you shouldnât have eaten that burger, you should just lay here and feel this, you deserve it, it isnât that bad, donât wake anyone up, see there is always a priceâŠetc.â In my exhaustion and overwhelm I began to create a torture chamber for myself; thought by thought. đŁđ«đđ€đBUT thank goodness I had just done all this work on love!!! It was fresh in my mind and I could quickly pivot. Instead of punishing myself for the pain I stated to love myself in it⊠can I love this too? Even this? đ I got up, took that Tylenol, reminded myself that I could do hard things, got a cup of tea, told myself it was going to be okay, and stayed with my own pain in loving compassion. I canât know if the way I spoke to myself helped the experience pass any faster, but I do know that sitting in the flow of love felt more manageable than fighting through my own judgements. đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ đđđđThat is the power of love, it doesnât take the pain away, but it does make life easier to bear. đđđđđđ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ May we all find ways in this new year to love ourselves, to love one another, to love our neighbors and our enemies, and our own shadows. Let us love!! let us live in love. I DO REALLY THINK IT COULD WORK, YâALL; not to save the world from its pain, but to ease the suffering. happy new year, lover.