05/14/2024
Very little can prepare a family for the pain of addiction and as bad as it became for mine, it didn’t start out that way.
In the beginning, drinking was just for fun. Over time, I added a baffling amount of Rx drugs to combat my anxiety, insomnia, panic attacks, brain fog, inability to concentrate, and depression. I had no idea what my baseline mental and emotional health looked like because drugs and alcohol dictated those.
Soon patterns developed and I suffocated on more shame.
More patterns.
Worse behavior.
More shame.
Until...I got sober.
No question, the first moments in sobriety were the longest of my life. I couldn’t imagine not drinking for 11 hours, let alone 11 days but the months leading up to my recovery were the scariest. I was positive I was the only wife/mom enjoying the comfort of the suburbs, while living a double life. I wasn’t and if this sounds familiar, I promise you are not alone. I refer to it as suburban silence, and it’s as dangerous as any street drug out there. Addiction thrives on silence, shame, and stigmatizing anyone who desires help. If you or someone you love is struggling with substance abuse, can help. Support is here, and it’s much closer to home than you might expect.