12/06/2025
There’s something about sanctuary spaces that lets you go deeper. They create a container of safety that allows us to both face the past and create the future. After five hours back to back of therapy sessions today, I got into our sauna-PEMF domes. Halfway through, I realized I was in a mixed state of consciousness where my mind could use the metaphors of dreamland to process things while my aware mind could analyze the dreams at the same time. I realized I was looking at how I saw my future potentials.
After an hour had passed, I moved to the cold plunge. I’m careful with this as I have a trauma history, and am wildly protective to avoid cortisol states. I entered quickly and immediately, I found myself whispering to myself “you’re safe, you’re loved, you’re okay.” It was automatic. I repeated “you’re safe” three times before I even realized I was doing so. As the seconds started ticking, I recognized I moved to more of “you’re okay,” not as an affirmation, but as an excited statement of having survived and being on the other side.
My body had remembered. The cold water induced the same panic of the traumas - elevated heart rate, increased breathing, blood shifting. And then it remembered the healing. I am safe. I am loved. I’m actually okay!
Two minutes had passed. I was alert, looking around with slow controlled breathing, recognizing the uncomfortableness of the cold water, but my thoughts weren’t of survival anymore. They were of love, that I did make it through, that I can sit with discomfort, that I am physically in a space that is literally bathed in soft colored light dancing around me from the galaxy projectors, music with healing frequencies floating through the air, and comfort everywhere.
This is what healing looks like. It’s not the absence of struggle, but of knowing you’re okay in the struggle. That you do in fact survive. It’s where you dream again, delight again, and know that you are stronger than a thousand things behind you.
Find your healing.
♥️, Rachel
