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10/24/2021

An autonomic form of gaslighting

Much of our wounding occurs prior to the acquisition of language and is not able to be healed through the questioning and reorganization of patterns of thinking. In other words, we can’t think our way out of trauma.

When our capacity to process unbearable terror, panic, shame, and rage is overwhelmed, undigested pieces of experience are held subcortically and in our cellular circuitry, unreachable by thinking which is a layer removed from the fires of the alchemical body.

Encouragement to “just get over it, that’s totally irrational, you can’t really believe that, you know that’s not true” and so forth is experienced by an inflamed nervous system as the activity of violence and aggression.

It’s like an autonomic form of gaslighting and reflects a deep misunderstanding of trauma and the workings of implicit memory, and only contributes to re-traumatization, in personal, cultural, and collective networks.

In addition to shattering and unendurable experience – which is painful and terrifying enough – there is a profound sense of aloneness that goes with this, the sense that no one can understand, that there is no companionship into the dark night. I am alone in this. This is devastating to the soul.

When that raging alive little boy or aching little girl cries out longing to be held, to be known, to be felt, to be heard, to be remembered… peeking their little heads out as if to say, “Is it safe now? How about now? I’ve been waiting for so long for a companion and friend. How about now?”, they’re really not all that interested in our clear cognitive analysis, rational inquiry, powerful spiritual insight, and thoughts on the matter.

They’re yearning for something else… for you, for your heart, for your holding. To know that you will stay near, that you will not abandon or shame them, that you will do your best to provide sanctuary and safe passage for them to come Home, to be allowed to come out of that frozen state and live once again.

In this way they don’t even want or need to be healed, but to be held. And to feel safe.

Photo by Lisa Runnels

06/03/2020

Coronavirus Chronicles 66
Evolving Consciousness

How is your heart right now? As I have been reading and watching the events unfolding across the world in relation to George Floyd’s death, I have been aware of the deep sadness that is sitting in my heart and being communicated through every cell in my body. Have you felt that too?

To be living in a human system that continues to support racism and violence, and approves of dominance over others, brings heart-breaking sadness and grief.

Maybe for you, this heart-break leads to righteous anger and action, or maybe it leads to a feeling of overwhelm and powerlessness. Or maybe, like most people, you will keep moving back and forth between these different states of emotion and being, again and again as you experience hundreds of emotions about the state of the world and what you can do about it. This rollercoaster ride is the immense wisdom of your heart guiding you on the energetic journey beyond dualism; beyond the isolated places of anger or grief, of left or right, of black or white.

This time of evolving consciousness is beginning to demand that these places of separation and of ‘other’ evolve to be places of wisdom, compassion, respect, and interconnectiveness. If you are feeling the extremes of emotion at this time, support your heart, and know that by feeling all that you are, you are exactly where you need to be.

A powerful way to support your heart energetically is the Heart Hug. Cross your arms over your chest, place your fingers in your armpits and rest your thumbs on your chest. Hold this for several minutes as you breathe, feel, breathe, evolve. The more you can stabilise and support your heart as your consciousness makes the journey again and again beyond dualism, beyond pettiness and beyond vested interests, the more we all grow, together. You can do the Heart Hug as often as you need to support your energy, your emotions and our conscious evolution.

With big brave love to you today, regardless of skin colour, of age, of gender, or any other false dividing category that has been accepted for the last several centuries but whose time is ending.

Prune
June 2 2020