02/15/2025
Yesterday was my 30th birthday.
10 years ago, a lot of my coworkers and friends were turning thirty and I remember it being a catastrophic event for most of them. But then, There was me saying I can’t wait to turn 30 because that means I can fulfill my lifelong dream of adopting my baby from China❤️
Fast forward to …A few months ago when I was crying about being thirty soon, because the one reason I wanted to be thirty so long ago has been stripped away. China no longer allows adoption with the US…..Which then spiraled into I’ll be thirty, I don’t have a college degree, I don’t have any children, I work a job with HORRIBLE pay, my grandmother will never meet my children and she’s not here to tell me something encouraging about that fact that my strongest desire is no longer a possibility….etc.
Fast forward to two days ago, Thursday night, the night before my birthday, I was crying while driving home from a class reflecting on my life and feeling overwhelmed with a genuinely loving feeling about turning 30.
The date of my Birthday, February 14th will always be such a beautiful thing to me…
I love that I share my birthday with a holiday dedicated to love
I love that I share my birthday with my twin Aunt and Uncle who have now passed, it blesses me with such a sweet way of remembering them.
I’m learning to love my birthday being just two days before the passing of my Grandmother, because while her passing still stings so much, I am reminded of that time when she could have gone any day and I got to spend my birthday with her one last time.
I couldn’t be more grateful for the life I have right now at 30 years old…
-I have a husband who loves me and cares for me so well.
-I have been blessed with the opportunity to live my life with my cousin who is also my best friend
-I get to be around my family all the time which is my favorite place to be
I can genuinely say that I am nothing but happy about turning 30 🖤
Thank you to everyone who made it such a special day☺️