01/05/2026
It's hard in our modern world to stay peaceful. The one thing that upsets me sometimes the most is that being peaceful is very important for good health, and yet, all around us, we see what are many, many obstacles to being peaceful.
It's so easy to get afraid and upset in our world.
I really do feel that everyone needs a place that they can look or connect to or feel a sense of belonging and peace. I love the ocean for this reason but for many other reasons as well.
When Hurricane Sandy came and my home and business/clinic was destroyed.I will never forget how heartbreaking it was.But at the same time, that very day, literally moments after I got home to see all the damage, I was photographing long island sound right across the street and all around town. This will always amaze me because it was a very scary situation and I lost everything pretty much, and you would think that would have crushed my spirit. All around me, I saw my neighbors who were shocked and trying to clean things up and rebuild.
Of course, many of them rebuilt, but many moved away. It was different for everyone.
But I remember in spite of seeing all of this and having tears in my eyes, I remember a sense of awe and inner peace that was very interesting.
Sometimes when I tell people about this, they don't really understand but I guess you would have had to be there to know what I mean.
I remember a feeling of being very tiny. I remember growing respect for the ocean and its power.
I did not fall out of love with it, but I fell into love more deeply on that day.
It took me a long time to find a place to live because things were expensive after that, hurricane and I lost everything and also I was lucky to have a friend who would let me stay with her until I found a place. Very grateful for that and always will be.
Everywhere I went I took my camera.
I took photos in Branford and in Milford mostly. I kept looking out at that water and feeling a sense of completion and wholeness that I had never felt anywhere else.A sense that there was something more powerful than all the darkness that can sometimes be in our world.
As time went on and I continued to work and find new places to live along the way, I never stopped loving the ocean.
I still went to it for peace even though it destroyed my home and my business. It still felt like I was getting all of the answers I need right there.
During the pandemic, I began to go to rhode.Island and take a lot of photos there. I was going through some very deeply heartbreaking things at the time and struggling, like many people were. Sometimes I would spend eight or ten hours just sitting and walking on the beach.And it was still not long enough for me.
I remember the first photo I took when the borders opened up, and I went and discovered a beach there that I had been reading about. I stood there for the longest time and there isn't word to describe it. You can't describe that feeling of connection and awe and deep respect.
Today I wake up to news, a lot of scary things going on.. Without details, I was feeling stressed out about a lot of things. I was actually thinking, I just don't feel like meditating.It's too too much to think about being quiet right now.
And I put on my t v on youtube and watched a video on one of the waves channels where they have many beautiful ocean waves and surfers and just amazing photography and videos. I was watching, and suddenly I noticed that all the stress dropped down and out of my body.
It had become a natural process.
Over time, we can cultivate this type of connection where we simply look at something or smell it or hear it and we feel better.
Suddenly the biggest problems in the world felt like they didn't even exist.
There's something bigger and better. And yes, it is humbling and yes, it is strong and powerful enough to destroy... And strong and powerful enough to lift.
As I was watching the video I noticed that just right to my t.V on the wall was a photo of that very favorite beach that I saw the first time I went to the ocean in rhode island during the pandemic.
I just knew everything would be okay in that moment.
I'm so very grateful to all ocean photographers and videographers and surfers and water people who get out there and share these things with all of us. It is immensely healing and inspiring at the same time.
I really need to go up to the ocean very soon and take a new batch of photos, even though it is winter.
It seemed like all the meanness in the world, everything that we can't even process at times, suddenly it felt quiet and invisible.
Together, we can cultivate this very quiet energy that is also very powerful.
My lesson this morning is learned, and I feel very thankful for that. π
Have hope, but more than hope. Become that hope for others. Grow energy, and look out for each other.
Enjoy this photo of sunrise in rhode island a few years ago when I was swimming.