04/16/2026
When I was pregnant after loss, I wasnāt always fully honest when someone asked me how I was doing. But, if someone had prodded deeper, hereās what I wouldāve told them:
1. Iām terrified. So scared that this baby wonāt make it earthside. Iām scared to plan anything, and I canāt even imagine buying the things we need. āWhat ifā is constantly on my mind.
2. I miss my baby in Heaven. And I feel like Iām not allowed to talk about him because everyone expects me to have āmoved onā out of the joy of another baby. But babies donāt replace babies, and I love both of them.
3. I love this baby so much, it almost hurts. I never knew my heart could hold this much love, but it does. It keeps growing to love each of my babies in unique ways. I donāt even fully understand it, but itās very real.
4. Iām so incredibly grateful for the people in my corner who love us and who are willing to hold hope for us. It means so much! (And those people have only stepped up more since my babies have joined us earthside!)
If any of this resonates with you, I promise youāre not alone. PAL is a rollercoaster, and it can feel really isolating. Iām here for you, holding hope for you, and praying for you and your baby! Follow along for more encouragement š¤