04/24/2026
Almost 2 weeks ago, I competed in BJJ and won the gold. This was after taking time off post severely injuring my back and going through a fibroid surgery. I spent months in agony thinking I would never do BJJ again and there I was in the compeshowing up with my whole heart, mind, body and soul. And I walked away feeling amazing from the inside out.✨
The experience reminded me of how extraordinarily far I’ve come and at the same time it showed me how much I still have to learn and grow.
There was a significant moment for me where because of winning the gold I had the chance to enter the open division, across ages and weight classes. For a moment, I seriously considered it.
But then I paused… and listened to myself.
My body was clear. Here is enough. Not from fear… but from svadyaya, self awareness.
There’s a line from the Tao Te Ching (which my mom gave me years ago and has been a big influence in my life) that stayed with me:
“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.”
And that’s exactly what that moment felt like.
I had already done what I came to do, to show up, be present, be my best, and enjoy the experience.
Since then, I’ve been reflecting on how much my training has evolved.
When I first started, BJJ, I always felt and moved in a hurry, these days I have really come to be at peace with where I am and move much slower. Which turns out to be more efficient! And I rest when needed.
I’ve been working on trusting that where I am (no more and no less) is what actually allows me to expand into full potential.
Just a few weeks before the competition, I was suffering from a major leg infection that started small, but somehow landed me in the ER for 5 hours getting an infusion.
Another pause. Another moment of uncertainty.
And again, the practice was the same: be aware, rest, heal, ground in being enough
and then… rise.
As I prepare for leading a retreat in Senegal, I’m reminding myself to go slow and be patient with my heart and mind staying open to all experiences… curious to see what this journey will bring for me and my students.🥰
Staying grateful for all that is and open to what’s ahead. 🙏🏼