07/05/2025
I know, it's been a while! And yet, I have been quite preoccupied with the subject of healing lately. Here's why:
Yewniquely Attired: That’s me a couple of weeks ago. As I’ve shared on Facebook recently, I am in the midst of chemo and radiation treatments for a cancerous tumor near my left tonsil.
“You’ve got cancer.” Not the words anyone wants to hear! But for around 40% of the people in the U.S. and modern cultures, this will be a diagnosis.
Having been called to become a healer in the Wixárika (Huichol) tradition, it is interesting to navigate through the world of high-tech allopathic medicine. From the outset of my treatments, it seemed important receive it all as ‘spirit medicine’ in line with the perspective of a tradition that has supported well-being for a people over thousands of years.
How to do that? Well, for one, every time I receive either a radiation or chemo-therapy treatment, I wear one of my t-shirts with a Wirárika design, as well as a Wirárika bracelet on each wrist. That may seem like a superficial fashion statement, but it helps me to stay connected with my identity in that tradition.
For the radiation treatments, while my head is secured tightly by the mesh mask that ensures that the proton beam targets consistently, I try to see it as a form of Fire. In my tradition–and many others–Fire is the spirit that animates our hearts and helps us feel connected to each other and the world.
Recently, a friend alerted me to the fact that one of my chemo infusion ingredients (Paclitaxel) is derived from the bark of the Pacific Yew tree. That hit like a lightning bolt!
“Coincidentally,” a kindred species of Yew was revered by different indigenous traditions of Europe for thousands of years. Because of the toxicity of its needles, bark and wood, Yew has often been associated with death. And yet, much like the card representing death in tarot, it has connotations of transformation–the ‘little deaths’ that we must experience along the way in order to have a fulfilling life.
Yew trees are amongst the oldest found in Europe. They are challenging to date them because part of their death/re-birth character stems (literally!) from the fact that as they age, their core dies out and they become hollow. The usual approach of counting rings doesn’t work with Yews. But the oldest of these trees is thought to be a particular Yew tree in Scotland that is purportedly up to 5,000 years old!
As it happens, when I was in Scotland to support one of Sacred Fire’s Fire Speaks events three years ago, I joined some friends to visit a Yew tree in the Borderlands region. The powerful presence of that great being was immediately noticeable! A picture of that Great Yew of Ormiston is below.
From the Old English, the word ‘heal’ has the connation of being made whole. And ultimately, that is what I am seeking through my allopathic treatments. I have a particular challenge right now that shows up in the form of cancer. But looking beyond my story, there is a pervasive need out there ‘to be made whole.’ Technology is definitely useful as I am finding in my allopathic treatment. What it does not do so well is make us feel whole. That’s the realm of spiritual medicine that has been practiced by the Wixárika and many other indigenous traditions over millennia.