03/22/2025
I’ve been going back and forth in my heart and mind challenged on rather to share SO many photos and memories…
I’ve made tons of memories with my custodial cousin/teens, my fiancé, and many other souls that have journeyed with me in this life.
I’ve held back on sharing my thoughts and experiences based on my fear of being judged.
I find it interesting as my awareness evolves that this would be the route I would choose?
I think back as to how once we shared our photo in albums, home movies, and wallet pictures.
Maybe, I’m simply getting old and some resignation has creeped into my mind that tells me that it’s a stupid possibility to share my wins and losses.
The energy of not enough, shame, guilt… The pain and journey of losing/releasing a best friend getting divorced almost 3 years ago now. Choosing to be a single man and holding my cousin/kids high dimming my light.
So I’m choosing a new story about my new best friend. A human that lights up my energy and world who desires to be my wife. I share the testimony of talking to this man, my father, now for five years. Three of those years I’ve confirmed he is my biological father. I’ve since taken him out of his hospital room where he is bed ridden…
Some people are lights on this earth, saints, and angels… I constantly run from the love thinking that it’s me being humble. However life has humbled me in many intricate ways. “I once was very clever and had all the answers to change the world, I am now wise and desire to change myself” -Rumi-
Here is a challenge to myself, to share more memories, also share the great things that have actually transpired in my life. I do this in efforts to possible inspire you to take action and a risk in your own life.
-Matthew 7:3-5-