07/20/2024
Beautifully written by my friend Sandy at Source Healing Homeopathy ❤️
I went to the batting cages today. As I drank my morning coffee I noticed an angsty, rumbling wave of thoughts and emotions that wanted; no NEEDED to come out. They were strong and very persistent imploring my body to MOVE. But not just, go take a walk kind of move. I needed full body movement. I suddenly had a vision of batting cages. That was it. I NEEDED to go to the batting cages to help move the energy of these emotions out, to release them and let them free. This thought really surprised me because I haven’t swung a bat in over 12 years! The last time was when I took my sons.
I played softball from the age of 8 until the summer before I got pregnant with my oldest son - 20 years straight. I played it all. Slow pitch, fast pitch, 11-inch, 12-inch, 16-inch, Co-ed. I played other sports too, but softball was my home. While I enjoyed playing other sports, there was always this underlying hum of insecurity, struggle, no achievement or skill was good enough, every mistake was met with shame. By the time those other sport’s seasons were done, I was exhausted and a little rattled, questioning every little thing I had done, or not done. But then I would pick up my bat and glove and go to the first softball practice. Everything melted away.
Softball was the one place where I didn’t feel I was constantly questioning, was I enough? Did I do enough? Was that good enough? Did I measure up enough? All that silenced. I just played and I NEVER questioned my abilities. It was the only place where I ever felt true confidence, not only in my body and self but in my core. I didn’t realize this until much later in life after I had stopped playing and became engrossed in LIFE and all the responsibilities.
And I was GOOD! On the field, I could sense and feel where the ball was going to go even before the batter hit. If I was a step out of place, the long arms adorning my eventual 6’ frame would easily make up the distance. The effortless way my body would step, spin and unleash my arm with a throw. Seamless, smooth, as I swung around and released the ball with graceful power like a dancer spinning and gliding into the next pose.
And then there was batting. Whoa, I could HIT! There is nothing better than the feel of the bat hitting the ball in the "sweet spot". It’s as if body, bat and ball all become one and the sound is pure. It can feel like you didn’t even hit the ball because it’s so harmonious.
And when I made mistakes, and I made plenty, there wasn’t an ounce of shame. There was disappointment, fire, determination, understanding, learning and desire to have another opportunity.
As I was walking to the batting cages, I felt this excited little kid in me who was wanting to run ahead and do the “thing” but the adult in me needed to give some directions first. “Now, I know we’re excited but we’re going to do easy swings first. You’re 52 and haven’t swung a bat in 12 years and you have a full day of clients tomorrow and we don’t have time for a chiropractic visit. Start with slow swings. Are you listening to me?” I stepped into the cage and the first pitch came my way. I did the laziest, slowest swing I could muster - BAMN - line drive right back into the machine! WHOOSH! It all came flooding back and with it instant tears streaming down my face. THAT feeling! THAT part of me! The CONFIDENCE, STRENGTH and KNOWINGNESS of self. The complete feeling of I’M HERE and I’VE GOT THIS! I was connecting with an essential part of me that was able to live freely, without any hindrance or suppression and that used softball as its way of expression.
What does any of this have to do with Homeopathy? Homeopathy brings you back to YOU! There’s a common saying of Health is Freedom. Homeopathy helps bring about that freedom, freedom of self in all areas, physical, mental, emotional. When there is freedom there is an ease and flow of our bodies, minds, emotions and life. When there is suppression, there are blocks, struggles, pains and stagnation. As we live our lives, there are many experiences and events that can impact and impede our physical, mental, emotional “freedom”. But what we can do is continue to strengthen our vitality, resilience, reduce our susceptibility so that we can live these big beautiful lives in as much freedom as possible and not move away from SELF.
If you are interested in learning how Homeopathy can support YOU, schedule a free informational call at SourceHealingHome.com.
I am heading back to the batting cages, as soon as I get some batting gloves.
