08/21/2021
Social media is a funny thing...weird funny. I'm not talking "haha" funny here.
I won't say I hate it but I definitely have many moments of extreme dislike for it. I'm not blaming the platforms or the other participants...it's me. 100%. Totally me.
I don't like how it makes ME feel or act - about and to myself...and others. How I can waste so much time fiddling with it and looking at things that don't fill me up. I don't like how I have sometimes allowed myself to be taken away FROM myself because I was lost in socials. I never really felt like I was gaining anything ... or even maintaining a level of energy or a feeling when interacting with it. Just depleted.
Always left searching. Searching for an undefinable more. My next short lived "hit". Validation. Acceptance. Inclusion.
All the things that I already have available within and to me.
I got tired of not living my life outside of the socials to the fullest. I was exhausted from fostering and worrying about FB friendships more than my actual everyday relationships. I had my algorithm wrong so I had to tweak it.
2 weeks ago I deactivated my personal. Before doing that I ensured that the Administrators I had set up for the Redwing page would keep the page active. Once I was assured of this, I deactivated my personal account.
Gah - I was so worried about what people were going to do if they saw we weren't "friends" anymore. Would they be mad at me for "unfriending" them? Would they be hurt? So many thoughts about damage control over something so seemingly benign.
Eventually, it stopped. I told myself I had to let go of trying to control and manage how other people would feel or what they would think. That's hard for a recovering people pleaser.
Honestly. Really f*cking ridiculous all the thought that went into an action that I would equate to shutting off the TV.
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But...YOU. What's this mean for you, a follower of Redwing Healing Arts' page?
Seemingly, not much just yet!
I still have access to Messenger and do receive the messages you all send me. I will retain this and continue to check it often.
I will be making overdue updates to this page. In the process of doing that, I will be making changes to settings, and contact information.
Future posts will contain links to my Website (also getting updated) where I will be focusing more of my attention. After 5 years in business, the majority of the people that come to me have found me through my Website if not due to a referral. It just makes sense to pour more into that.
I remain committed to sharing my journey with you - my struggles, thought process, where I am stuck, what I'm ruminating on, breakthroughs, and the silly joyful stuff too. I remain of the belief that when I share of myself authentically, the people that are meant to find me will. That simple belief has worked for years .. and will continue to.
This is a platform for you to get to know me. Where you get to decide if we jive. Where you can examine and briefly experience some of what I offer. Is it for you or not? I will gladly answer questions about myself and the services I offer .. but I will never try to convince you I'm your gal.
You'll know.