Redwing Healing Arts

08/21/2021

08/21/2021

Social media is a funny thing...weird funny. I'm not talking "haha" funny here.

I won't say I hate it but I definitely have many moments of extreme dislike for it. I'm not blaming the platforms or the other participants...it's me. 100%. Totally me.

I don't like how it makes ME feel or act - about and to myself...and others. How I can waste so much time fiddling with it and looking at things that don't fill me up. I don't like how I have sometimes allowed myself to be taken away FROM myself because I was lost in socials. I never really felt like I was gaining anything ... or even maintaining a level of energy or a feeling when interacting with it. Just depleted.

Always left searching. Searching for an undefinable more. My next short lived "hit". Validation. Acceptance. Inclusion.

All the things that I already have available within and to me.

I got tired of not living my life outside of the socials to the fullest. I was exhausted from fostering and worrying about FB friendships more than my actual everyday relationships. I had my algorithm wrong so I had to tweak it.

2 weeks ago I deactivated my personal. Before doing that I ensured that the Administrators I had set up for the Redwing page would keep the page active. Once I was assured of this, I deactivated my personal account.

Gah - I was so worried about what people were going to do if they saw we weren't "friends" anymore. Would they be mad at me for "unfriending" them? Would they be hurt? So many thoughts about damage control over something so seemingly benign.

Eventually, it stopped. I told myself I had to let go of trying to control and manage how other people would feel or what they would think. That's hard for a recovering people pleaser.

Honestly. Really f*cking ridiculous all the thought that went into an action that I would equate to shutting off the TV.
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But...YOU. What's this mean for you, a follower of Redwing Healing Arts' page?

Seemingly, not much just yet!

I still have access to Messenger and do receive the messages you all send me. I will retain this and continue to check it often.

I will be making overdue updates to this page. In the process of doing that, I will be making changes to settings, and contact information.

Future posts will contain links to my Website (also getting updated) where I will be focusing more of my attention. After 5 years in business, the majority of the people that come to me have found me through my Website if not due to a referral. It just makes sense to pour more into that.

I remain committed to sharing my journey with you - my struggles, thought process, where I am stuck, what I'm ruminating on, breakthroughs, and the silly joyful stuff too. I remain of the belief that when I share of myself authentically, the people that are meant to find me will. That simple belief has worked for years .. and will continue to.

This is a platform for you to get to know me. Where you get to decide if we jive. Where you can examine and briefly experience some of what I offer. Is it for you or not? I will gladly answer questions about myself and the services I offer .. but I will never try to convince you I'm your gal.

You'll know.

05/06/2021

Look at the beauties that came forth to be birthed today!!

I am in awe and love with each of these beings for their very different energies, messages and spirits. Sitting in the creation space and observing what comes forth and takes shape is gratifying and humbling to say the least. The juxtaposition of knowing I am nothing AND everything in these moments is hard to ignore. It is a very peaceful process all in all.

Over the next few days these Medicine Dolls will be united with their humans, begin delivering their messages and assist their human partner on their continued journey through transformation, healing, growth and love.

I am filled with so much wonder as I hear how past recipients have incorporated the Medicine Doll into their meditations, altars, dream work, Reiki practices, etc. There is truly no "right way" to work with these beings. The medicine is captivating and expansive.

The creation and delivery format is an ever evolving process. What began as the creation of "worry dolls" to keep myself busy last April has morphed into a modality and service offering all its own. If you are interested in learning more about the dolls and how you can get your own, comment or private message me to begin a conversation.

I will be posting more images and the "stories" of current and past dolls in the coming days - some of them are too good NOT to share with everyone!

03/17/2021

It’s been *crickets* here on the FB page.

That hasn’t been the case here in the office. Services are occurring, small classes and circles are taking place and new opportunities are being created. While Covid restrictions have sucked in so many ways, it’s been a really wonderful time to hone in and focus on my purpose ... to imagine and take action on how I am to present this in the near future.

This past weekend I opened up my rooms for current and former Reiki & Access Bars students to utilize the space for practice. This has been a small piece of a larger vision I have held for 3+ years. There have been numerous times in the past in which I have been disappointed that this vision wasn’t taking hold. But, I understand now. THIS is the right time. THIS is the right space. THESE are the right PEOPLE to begin this venture alongside.

I’m completely humbled, amazed and excited to have had this beautiful troupe of souls find me and walk alongside during this period of Creation & Expansion. Yes, it really comes down to the people for me. As much as this is MY vision - it is not FOR me. A portion of my purpose is to empower others through their individual healing and growth … so they can, in turn, do the same for others.

Granted, this is a small piece to a larger vision. There will be more disappointments, flops and failures. Each one pinpointing areas of growth or continued healing for myself. I remain in cooperation with the vision I hold regardless of the speed of the unfolding or direction it takes.

If you hold a vision, hold on to it with loose fingers. As you grow and shift within your being, allow your vision the space to do the same. Give yourself Grace in your moments of learning (some people call these mistakes) and move on. Let go of control .. let go of the shore and allow yourself to drift into the spaces and places you belong.

You’ve got this.

I believe in you.

01/28/2021

My favorite part of office days are those first moments after I’ve arrived.

Opening the door and feeling the gentle loving embrace of this sanctuary ...

Lighting the candles and being aware of the first stirrings of energy rising ...

Attending to the plants and receiving their messages of contentment and peace ...

Starting the the central fire (candle) and witnessing the circle of healing energy form as intentions for the day are set ...

I feel the waves of energy - powerful and gentle - wrap around me, encircling me with the deep knowing I’m exactly where I need to be...living my purpose.

I have never cherished a space more than this one.

12/13/2020

My birthday was this past week.

I dreaded its approach.

Like most kids, I loved my birthday. The day after my birthday, the countdown for the next would begin. Counting down by months...weeks...days...and finally, the hours until I woke up one year older. Woke up to a day filled with possibilities and hope for the next year ahead.

I’ve been reflecting on my birthday a great deal. You see, I haven’t loved my birthday for the last few years. In fact, as the big day approaches the feelings of anxiety, loneliness, desperation and resentment loom large. This is a drastic change from years past.

I’ve spent the last several years peeling away the layers of trauma that have been itching to bust free. What started as a slow process several years ago has escalated into a constant revolving door of understanding-purge-integrate-repeat. Over the last several months, the realizations, understandings and truths have rapidly stacked upon each other - landing just long enough for me to recognize what they each mean for my healing before the purge and the process begins again - each realization and purge cycle coming faster than the last.

I’ve been laid bare countless times over the last few months. A process that once flattened me now propels me forward eagerly. There is intense motivation to rush at the truth and understand it rather than judge it. To walk into the fire without fear of being burned because I know I control it. As I’ve immersed myself in this quest, I’ve come to realize my birthday, through the reasoning of my inner child, has intrinsically been tied to my self-worth.

I’ve come to know myself and see myself more clearly. I was smacked with the realization that my 7-year old self has been lashing out for 40 years through anger and judgment. I didn’t recognize these “attributes” were simply a plea for help from my inner-child for help. I’ve believed for years that I’m just an angry person whose fire burns too high and hot. I didn’t realize I had rejected this aspect of self so wholly that I couldn’t even connect to her - that I couldn’t hear her screams for help. This has been my work of the last year.

Conversely, the memories of pre-trauma Randi have also been rushing in. In my vision, I am glowing golden and ALWAYS chasing joy. I believe in the magic of everyday miracles - a kind word, a hug, a compliment. Skipping in the yard and singing to the trees. Twirling in the wind. Communing with the butterflies. Kissing the snow.

I see now that those are the things I wanted for my birthday. I wanted that version of Randi back. As a child I thought my wholeness could be wrapped up in a box adorned with ribbons and bows and presented. I wanted all the material things to fill the void that was left when a chunk of my soul was broken off. While these words were never directly spoken to me, I received gifts, comments and snickers that indicated others saw me was greedy and selfish.

In actuality, all I really wanted was my wholeness back.

Sure, I wanted those presents. But, more than anything, I wanted to be seen. Acknowledged. For Someone to take the time to slow down and BE with me. To be told how special I was. To affirm the light they saw in me. To see the broken pieces and put them back together for me.

Noone gave me that gift and I thought it was because I didn’t deserve it - because I wasn’t worthy.

As we evolve as conscious people, we begin to realize that there are certain things that only WE can give ourselves. Reclaiming my wholeness and authentic self have been a huge gift I’ve given myself this year. I splurged and went all out and forgave those who hurt little Randi … and, because I KNOW my worth, I took it a step further and forgave myself.

These gifts weren’t wrapped as I would have expected. They came in the form of tears. Wave after wave of sorrow, loneliness and panic crashing over me. I was powerless to the emotions as the tears flowed. I let the years of anger and pain cascade down my cheeks as Little Randi relented, accepted, healed and integrated. I received the gift that only I could give myself.

And, for the first time in 40 years, I allowed myself to fully receive the gifts those I hold dear presented to me without expectation. I allowed others to love me in the ways they chose. To celebrate me in their unique ways and see each gift as the unique expression of love that it is. Because I finally see I’m worthy of it.

Happy birthday to me!!

10/21/2020

~*~ ANNOUNCEMENT ~*~

Officially OPEN for ALL appointments types!

Hours: Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays

**Self-scheduler will not be turned on for the foreseeable future. You must contact me via message or text to schedule:

319.389.2238
randi@redwinghealingarts.com


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2020 has been a challenging year. I'm not saying anything we don't all know, right? But LORD, has it afforded some great opportunities to see, witness, realize, acknowledge and accept truths and situations we haven't wanted to.

2020 has just pushed all that sh$t into our faces and forced us to make a choice. Are we going to face these challenges, run from them or pretend we don't even know they are there?

I can humbly, yet proudly, tell you I have faced many more issues head on than I have not. In fact, there have been several mornings that I've exclaimed "Devil, you better be scared as hell of me today" as I swing my legs out from the bed and onto the floor.

Have I been exhausted? Have I been frustrated? Have I been angry?

Hell yea.

Have I given up?

Hell no.

The derecho that devastated our area struck about a month after I had quietly begun taking appointments again. A few weeks after the storm, my office mate moved to a larger & better space for her needs. Between the clean up at home & the remodel of the new space, it was weeks before I was able to get back to scheduling people on my waiting list.

I could have easily been frustrated & infuriated by this turn of events. Angry that I was faced with another "roadblock", frustrated by another "stall out", discouraged by another obstacle, etc. Instead, I stood in the eye of the storm and BECAME the calm. I did not let fear & illusion cloud my perception but instead stood in the midst of the chaos, held the center and witnessed my path clearly unfold before me.

One enormous truth I had been avoiding and running from was my desire and need for autonomy in my business. I'd always rented from or with others. While that worked well in the beginning, it had begun to feel constrictive the last few years. The want and need for a space of my own grew & swelled as it butted up against the belief that I could not afford a space alone.

Rachel moving out forced me to acknowledge my need and want for autonomy. Once I acknowledged, accepted AND stood in this truth, I have been absolutely astounded by the number of appointments I have booked WITHOUT officially announcing my re-opening. There has been no way to deny the support I have - and, why would I even want to. This is what happens when you stand in the power of your truth with absolute certainty and trust - the support flows in from many directions and in many ways.

I am exactly where I’m supposed to be at this moment.

I am ready for this!

Are you?

08/06/2020

Update on the “couples” soul journey chart between myself and Redwing Healing Arts ...

Not quite finished ... a little break to integrate that full moon energy & soak up that citrine love.

I love it!!! And ... look at that sassy bird! 🥰

Thanks Tango healing arts - kristin wieland. I can not recommend you & your services highly enough.

07/31/2020

Gahhh.... do you all know how obsessed I am with the spiritual & healing art pieces created by Kristin Wieland of Tango healing arts - kristin wieland???

Over the last few years she has created numerous animal totem drawings... a couples soul journey chart for my hubby & I ... a family chart .. and now this!

Watch as she begins a new kind of soul journey chart for me - one illustrating the astrological alignment between me & my business. Based on the details of my birth & the details of the date I signed my last lease.

I cannot wait to see the completed product AND see in what areas this relationship can be strengthened, healed, improved.

Thank you Kristin for all the wonderful healing energy you bring to the world...and me.

I love you my friend!

07/27/2020

Take a peek at my new office space....

It’s GORGEOUS ... I’m in love

This room has existed in various stages of completion since March when I moved in. Of all the patient souls in my life, this space has been the most willing to wait. The spiritual love & energy contained has held me in loving graciousness until I absolutely determined how I wanted to move forward.

And now, we move forward. In a new way .. doing new things ... with the same heart, love, compassion and humor as always. 💗

Be on the lookout for implemented precautionary steps & scheduling opportunities soon. I’ll work through my waiting list before opening the calendar back up for self-scheduling.

Very much looking forward to seeing you all soon! 💗💗

***naughty language alert***

06/16/2020

These pics might not look like much without an explanation. To me, they are progress toward opening my schedule for appointments. A small step toward “normalcy” ... a new normal anyway.

The table covering you see allows for alllll that wonderful cushioning that envelops you as you sink into the table to STAY on the table between appointments. This covering is a trusted and approved moisture barrier & will be thoroughly cleaned with a high grade medical cleaner between uses. Clean sheets & blankets are place after cleaner has dried.

The next picture is of my brand new air purifier with HEPA filter, UV light & ionizer to deactivate airborne particles (like viruses). I was ECSTATIC to see the initial read of the air quality in my space was a 7! 7 = good air quality without previous use of an air purifier. AND I have the AC cranked up in here to blow crap around.

To say I’m feeling some relief & hope is an understatement. A few more items still need to be delivered before I will consider opening for face-to-face appointments ... like those darned wipes!

Just know... I’m making progress & thinking of you all! Everything I’m doing is with all of us in mind. 💗

06/09/2020

Hey there! It's been a minute, huh? Global, national and personal situations that have been occupying my time and attention. There's been a lot of information, feelings and beliefs to process. I know I'm not the only one.

The murder of George Floyd was a tipping point - it catapulted many of us over the edge and into attention & action. Racial profiling, implicit bias, systemic racism are BY NO MEANS new phenomena. What is new? The number of white people that are speaking out & standing up, saying this has to stop - it's enough.

I've been asking myself the same questions many of you are probably asking yourselves. As a white woman, how do I show up and support the black community and other people of color? Now ... and, especially in the future?

I have seen so many great resources that give ideas for how to support and uplift the black community at this time. As a librarian, I gravitate toward books - to education & expansion of our minds. As a spiritual practitioner, I gravitate toward union and understanding.

For the reasons above, I will be holding a series of book discussions conducted and held in sacred circle. The books chosen will be those meant to open our eyes and expand our vision & understanding of our role and place within systemic racism. The conversations will be guided to begin our work and walk through emotions, beliefs and opinions toward compassion, empathy and unity.

If interested, be on the look out for event dates & times in the next few days - as well as the first book we will read. Feel free to comment below or message me directly to let me know you are interested in signing up or learning more.

05/19/2020

Last week (and those previous, I suppose), I was exploring and working through beliefs and emotions regarding not being seen or heard.

I’m talking about not being seen for the qualities that make me ME at the core - my heart, humor, kindness, compassion, etc. You know, people liking me for ME and not what I’m doing and who I’m doing it with, not what I have available to offer, nor the connections I can make…

I know there are eyes on me, watching what I’m doing, what I’m offering and how I’m reacting to situations. I know the majority of those eyes are watching with good intent & heart - I have such feelings of warmth for those souls. Those are the souls that keep me motivated and inspired.

No, it’s not those folks that had me bothered. It was the others. The few people that, consciously or unconsciously, were watching and searching for what I have or possess that they could steal, emulate or use to get them further along on their path.

And, honestly, it’s really not even THAT that was bothering me … because, really, when we are searching aren’t we looking for what fits us? And how do we know what fits us until we try it on and wear it? This is really just self-discovery in action…

No, it’s this much smaller class of others. Those that proclaim they feel a strong connection to you - who are SURE you have a past life connection or that you need to be working together in this lifetime in some BIG way. Those who SAY (what they THINK are) the right words but whose actions tell another story.

pffffttt...*insert major eye rolling here*

For several months, there’s been a nagging at me that certain people are using me as a stepping stone. Telling me how strong our connection is while they search out the way to get to what they are really after. Telling me how we should work together while not really even liking ME but being enticed by other relationships I hold near and dear to my heart.

This has bred in me feelings of distrust & resentment for these people - and of their conscious OR unconscious actions. Conversely, I now hold more compassion for those who are seeking FOR themselves so far OUTSIDE of themselves - they simply have the equation wrong. I KNOW this will correct itself in time.

I would never call this experience a “bad” thing. No, I’m rather grateful for the opportunity to work through this on ALL levels.

I’d like to bring awareness to the fact that I’m not a VICTIM in this. I understand my role and accountability in allowing this to happen and am making adjustments - the biggie is adding more discernment into my relationships. Asking more questions...taking more time.

I leave you with part of an automatic writing that came through as I was praying for guidance on this. I have moved out of this struggle, am walking away armed with insight I will carry and share with others in their time of need.

I hope this helps you along your path as well ... ❤️

“Our elders, though physically frail, carry the heaviest loads. To come into Elder status is a process. Not all people that are old are Elders. There’s a grace & ease to be achieved before this is reached. These Elders know they are forgotten but still embrace their very important role in the tribe. They know only few will come to them, care for them - truly hear & see them. And they are happy with those few. Because, in their wisdom, they know these are the only ones THEY need to be seen & heard by. It’s lonely to be sure but they are never alone in their constant communication with Spirit(s). Their lives are rich in ways unseen and unknown by most. And, isn’t that beautiful?

If you feel unseen & unheard, it’s because your work is hidden and unseen with the “other side”. Come to our circle - be heard and seen. Be one with us & fill yourself up from within and don’t look outside yourself. This is the wisdom of the Elders.

Look at the eagle flying high above - usually alone. We look at this and feel freedom, peace and love. Why when WE are alone do we feel disconnected? Why don’t we feel peace and freedom as easily? All it takes is for us to know we fly just as close to Creator as the eagle - to know we can feel freedom and peace too.

The eagle is easily alone and easily joined by others. Just as happy either way. Not sad or mournful when parted from others - just happy to be able to soar! Be like eagle.”

05/13/2020

You may have heard massage practices may re-open this coming Saturday.

I have chosen not to open at this time.

I'm not afraid of catching Covid-19. I worry about spreading it unknowingly - I think for many of us, this is the larger concern & worry.

I will make my OWN data-driven decisions and open when it feels a bit "safer" to me - when it doesn't feel like such a moral or ethical dilemma to offer face-to-face services. When I can wear PPE and not feel guilty for having equipment that has been so hard for many healthcare professionals to obtain.

On a related note, I'm still waiting for delivery of necessary equipment I purchased that is still on back order. Until those items arrive, nothing can happen anyway.

At this time, I'm tentatively planning to re-open early to mid-June. I will use this time to observe the effects "opening the economy" has on the spread of the virus. Are there spikes or have we truly flattened enough? What are other massage therapists experiencing - what is working for them & what is not?

I'm very fortunate that I have the luxury of waiting like this. I feel for the therapists that don't feel safe but have to return to work. I'm also cheering on the the therapists that are ready to return to their practices. Both are valid - both have my support.

I want to say thank you to everyone for being so patient...and continuing to be patient as I feel my way into an opening date. I feel very fortunate to have some of the best supporters around. I cannot wait to get you into the new space!!!

05/07/2020

Join me for an evening of conversation & animal totem drawing with Kristin of Tango Healing Arts!

We will talk about how Kristin discovered the gift of intuitive art - how it has developed over the years, how she brought it into the world, her future plans and more!

Highlights to include:
**Watch as Kristin draws Randi an animal totem LIVE while answering all our burning questions ....
**Discounts for some lucky watchers

Simply amazing and beautiful work - and person! I might be slightly obsessed.

05/04/2020

Physical distancing recommendations came out shortly after I signed my new lease....after the rooms were painted...after it was too late to hold off.

I had a moment of freak out when I realized people could not visit me there.

But, you know what?

I'm glad I signed that lease when I did.

Without the physical space & the HOPE that we will congregate there soon, I would not feel as connected to my work ...to Spirit ... to you all.

I don't believe things will return to the way they were - but, there will come a day in which restrictions are lessened (with more precautions in place).

In preparation to open my new space, I had created a monthly calendar of events. In looking at that today, I've realized that almost every workshop or class planned can be offered via Zoom.

So...schedule, I will!

From the get-go, I've been very passionate about staying connected - bolstering & supporting others when they need it - keeping my communities alive.

This is just an extension of those effusive goals. Feelings put into action perhaps.

I have to move forward - I cannot be restrained or held back. The energy of this doing AND being is very strong in me.

I am committed to my mission of fostering your whole-being growth, learning and healing.

I am committed to fostering connection & community in meaningful ways with you all.

I will find creative ways to engage so we may all continue to grow & support each other through whatever season, emotion, situation we are navigating.

I miss your hugs, smiles and laughs - but, I feel you here with me. I am not lonely.

Feel me there with you too.

04/22/2020

My nerves are frayed today - I can feel that but I thought I would be able to hide it. And then I looked in the mirror as I was washing my hands & realized the danger my family is in today...

I look absolutely crazed. Wild eyes, flushed face, hair sticking out everywhere (even though I styled it less than 2 hours ago).

Creator, hear my prayer. Keep my family safe, my temper in check and my words & actions soft today.

04/09/2020