11/05/2024
We will be heading to Napa this week. 🍷 I am both extremely excited and if I’m being completely honest, a little bewildered. You see, I don’t really drink as much alcohol as I used to. And I definitely don’t drink wine in the volume or frequency that I once did. Therefore my tolerance is kind of in the toilet. That’s good and bad, right?! 😜
But this is what I’ve realized as the Caroline today vs the Caroline from 4 years ago. I am going to Napa with other couples to enjoy their COMPANY, the beautiful SCENERY, amazing FOOD, and really tasty wine. My focus on the alcohol piece is completely different now than it used to be. 😉
I’ll be the first to admit that I used to drink wine to numb out some of my feelings. Frustration, anger, exhaustion, and the notion that “I deserved that glass (or 4) of wine because my day was hard”. 😢
Y’all, I was hiding behind that wine glass because I wasn’t really ready to face the hard. The hard of dealing with my emotions that were warranted, but still difficult. The hard of not liking what I saw in the mirror. The hard of being so uncomfortable in my own skin that I felt like I needed some alcohol to gain confidence. (It was fake confidence just so you know.) 🙄
So I am very much looking forward to the new Caroline who no longer use alcohol to cope, but instead will enjoy a wonderful trip with wonderful people - without having to hide a darn thing. 🥰