01/11/2026
I first posted the start of this painting on January 9, 2022 (the third image here). I had been immersed in cave space and energy for quite a few years as I sat with, felt into, and, in some sense, became the cave. I was drawn to, and often came upon, cave spaces in nature, in relationships, in art, in dreams, and deep within me.
This painting started while on a trip to the Netherlands in 2022 to visit with an aging family member. These trips were full of sorting through memories, holding space for death and dying...while simultaneously, something was uncovering within. I played with this painting numerous times, trying, for some reason to override what my soul wanted to paint. I kept seeing a cavern or container of celestial Light, a Divine Source, in the heart of the native land. The negative voices I wrote about in the January 9th, 2022 post crept in. I questioned who I thought I was to think I can paint! It was young. Yet, that uncovering and opening that was happening during my excursions to Holland were taking root. I began to not care what others thought; I began to allow myself. Maybe you can understand.
And as this was happening, I continued to see indigenous tribal figures dancing in the dark forest. About a year ago, I let the light in. I thought I would share the journey of this process. Art is not a thought. For me, it is a feeling deep within that is asking for expression.