Essential Lightworker

10/10/2025

don’t call me resilient
like it’s a crown
i wanted to wear

don’t paint me
in gold resurrection
and say “look how she rises"
as if I’m a phoenix
by choice
not necessity

you praise my strength
like it grew wild and free
from power
not grief

but darling—
my resilience
was not a poem
it was a scream

it was duct tape
and deadlines
and trembling hands
on the wheel
and nights crying
on cold linoleum
while the world insisted
i was tough
and had it all together

it was smiling in rooms
where i was bleeding
it was laughing
so no one would ask
why my eyes looked like
they remembered the war

so no
resilience isn’t a compliment
it’s a scar
you named beautiful
because you didn’t want to look
at the wound

it’s the armor
you admired
so you wouldn’t have to ask
why i needed it

you say
“you’re so strong”
i hear
“you can take more”
but what if i don’t want to?

what if
my vulnerability
is more essential
than my ability to
take a hit?

what if feeling my feelings
all the way down
is fierce reclamation
of my authentic self?
what if i want
a life that bares
the naked inconvenient truth
in my teeth
not just the sword
in my smile?

what if i am
just as strong
in my grief
and tender overwhelm
as i am when i’m carrying on
or as you like to say—
walking it off?

what if i’m tired of compliments
that support hiding
the fractures and bruises
so you can be comfortable?

i refuse to be
a crime scene coverup
i refuse to be complicit
in falsifying my truth
so i can win your esteem
like there’s a trophy
for suffering
and a reward for silence

no

i’d rather hear
how brave i am
to be real in a world
that benefits from fakery

how courageous
i am to feel my fear
and still show up fully
shaking and imperfect

that i am a badass
for wearing reckless joy
bigger than my damage

now that, dear patriarchy,
is a compliment

*************
Poem © Angi Sullins - from my new book "The Fragile and the Fierce" AVAILABLE HERE: https://angisullins.com/shop-3-2/

And if you’re resonating this far, try this:

leaving the
house of expectation
is a painful road
very few talk about

departing the carefully
constructed structures
you’ve so arduously built
in the name of
doing good
doing right
fitting in
being a
good daughter
and a better woman
good wife, good mother
good citizen, good neighbor
GOOD GOD

leaving the house
of your identity
can feel like abandonment
the rooms of your relationships
the porch of your perfection
the windows of your world view
the cellar of your security
and the attic of your
stored-away dreams
and forgotten talents
suddenly feel too small for you
all the goodness
the kindness
is a tiny rabbit’s house, Alice,
and you were meant to live
in the castle

the path out
through the woods
of uncertainty
is daunting but it leads
to HER

the woman you
are becoming
will cost you
people and spaces
relationships
and material things

but nothing costs
as much
as living in a shape
too small for you

choose HER over everything

Poem from my book "Unmasking the Myths " AVAILABLE HERE: https://angisullins.com/shop-3-2/

10/03/2025

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10/02/2025

You don’t get to drag someone through hell and then act surprised when they stop lighting themselves on fire to keep you warm.

You can’t dismiss someone’s feelings, weaponize their love, treat their loyalty like a doormat and then cry betrayal when they finally choose themselves. That’s not heartbreak. That’s narcissism with a victim complex.

See, people endure. They hold on. They hope. They stay longer than they should, convincing themselves that maybe, just maybe you’ll meet them halfway. But there’s always a final straw. Even the kindest souls will snap when they've been bent too far for too long.

Love isn’t martyrdom. Loyalty isn’t self-destruction.
And silence isn’t consent it’s survival. Until it’s not.

You don’t get to lie, gaslight, disappear when it’s inconvenient, then sob about how you were “abandoned.”
You don’t get to belittle someone, break them down, and then wonder why they stopped trusting you. That’s not confusion it’s karma.

Respect isn’t optional. Relationships don’t run on apologies with no change.
They require presence. Truth. Effort.
And when those things die, so does the connection not because someone stopped loving, but because they got tired of bleeding for someone who kept handing them knives.

Let’s call it what it is:
It’s delusional to expect endless forgiveness when all you give is pain.
It’s manipulative to rewrite the story, cast yourself as the saint, and paint the survivor as the villain just because they had the audacity to stop playing dead.

People don’t “switch up.”
They wake up.
They recognize the pattern.
They reclaim their worth.

So before you point fingers and cry betrayal, ask yourself
Were you consistent? Were you kind?
Or did you take and take until they had nothing left to give but goodbye?

This isn’t betrayal.
This is consequence.
And sometimes, the most sacred act of self-love is walking away from the very person who taught you how little they valued your presence.

09/29/2025

Change your perspective and you can change your reality ✨️

PERSPECTIVE IS EVERYTHING.

Look at this picture carefully.

👩‍👧 To the children on the boat: “Mom is trying to get us food.”
🐟 To the baby fish in the water: “Mom is trying to get us food.”

Both statements are true.
But the meaning changes completely depending on where you stand.

This is the reality of life:
✨ What feels like survival to one may feel like suffering to another.
✨ What feels like love to one may feel like loss to another.
✨ What feels like right to one may feel like wrong to another.

The Buddha taught about Right View (Sammā Diṭṭhi) in the Noble Eightfold Path. It reminds us that truth is often bigger than our personal perspective. What we see is not the whole picture.

🙏 Before we judge, criticize, or assume, we must pause and ask:
🔹 “What does this look like from the other side?”
🔹 “Whose suffering am I blind to while thinking only of my own?”

Compassion is born when we realize that everyone is trying to survive in their own way — just like the mother on the boat and the mother fish in the water.

🌿 True wisdom is not about choosing sides, but about seeing the whole.
🌸 True compassion is caring for all beings, knowing that their life is as precious to them as ours is to us.

09/29/2025

A family's black sheep are actually liberators of their family tree. Family members who don't adapt to family rules or traditions, those who constantly try to revolutionize beliefs.

Those who choose roads contrary to the well-beaten paths of family lines, those who are criticized, judged and even rejected.

These are called to free the family from repetitive patterns that frustrate entire generations.

These so-called ′′ black sheep ", the ones that don't fit, the ones that howl with rebellion, actually repair, detox and create new thriving branches in their family tree.

Countless unreal desires, broken dreams or frustrated talents of our ancestors manifest themselves through this revolt.

For inertia, the family tree will do anything to maintain the neutral and toxic course of its trunk, which will make the rebel's task difficult and conflicting.
Stop doubting and take care of your rarity ′′ like the most precious flower in your tree ".

You are the dream of all your ancestors.~~

~Bert Hellinger
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09/28/2025

09/24/2025

Keep your head up and forward, the best is yet to come

09/23/2025

🌟✨ Calling the visionaries, the dreamers, the lightworkers at heart ✨🌟

For more than 8 years, Essential Lightworker has been growing, evolving, and touching lives in ways I could never have imagined. Now I’m ready to take the next big step… but I don’t want to do it alone. Now more than ever, we need to come together 💜

I’m opening the "Founders Circle"a small, intimate group of trusted souls who will walk beside me, help shape the future of this mission, and co-create from a place of honesty, love, and light.

This is not just a group, it’s a heartbeat. A safe, politics-free space where your voice, your wisdom, and your feedback truly matter. Together we’ll test new offerings, dream about what’s next, and support one another as we grow.

The circle will be very limited in size, and not everyone who applies will be accepted. Interviews will be conducted in October, and only the right energies will do. Spirit always knows the timing, and if you feel your heart saying 💜yes💜 while you read this, maybe you’re meant to be here.

📩 To apply, email me at: essential.lightworker@gmail.com with the subject line "Founders Circle Application". I’ll reply with all the details and next steps.

Thank you for considering walking this path with me. Whether you’re chosen right now or later, your energy and love are already part of this work.

With gratitude and light,
Bridget 💫

09/15/2025

Be the change

09/14/2025

This is one of the hardest messages I’ve ever had to write

Dear Friends,
For now, I’m closing the doors of the physical space of Essential Lightworker. Life has asked more of me than I could have ever imagined, and I need to step back.

Many of you know my father’s health has been declining. Caring for him has opened my eyes in ways I can’t ignore. I’ve seen firsthand how deeply broken our home care system is, and I refuse to stay silent. I’ve always said I wanted to Be the change I wished to see, and right now my mission is to shine light on this broken system, to bring awareness and compassion where it’s desperately needed.

But please know, this isn’t goodbye. When things settle, I’ll still be offering online sessions, private home sessions, and special events. Spirit has made it clear that this work will continue, even if the form shifts.

I’m also starting something new The Founders Circle an exclusive, co-creative group to help shape the future of Essential Lightworker. If you’d like to be part of this inner circle, please email me to apply at Essential.Lightworker@gmail.com

From the bottom of my heart ❤ THANK YOU. Thank you for trusting me, walking with me, and letting me be part of your healing. You’ve given me as much as I’ve ever hoped to give you, and I’ll carry that with me as I take these next steps.

🌟 Introducing The Founders Circle 🌟

This isn’t for everyone. The Founders Circle is an exclusive, invitation-only group. A sacred inner circle for those who want to stand at the very center of what’s next for Essential Lightworker.

As a Founders Circle member, you won’t just watch the next chapter unfold, you’ll help write it. You’ll get:
✨ Insider access to my vision and research
✨ A direct voice in shaping new offerings and events
✨ Early invitations and opportunities reserved only for this circle
✨ The chance to co-create with me on a deeper level

The Founders Circle will be small, powerful, and by application only. If you feel called, email me and tell me why you’d like to be part of it.

This is more than a group. It’s the heartbeat of the future. 💜

P.S If you have a gift card please contact me to make arrangements.

See ya soon with More Love and A Brighter Light. XOXO Be kind to one another and 💫 BE the POSITIVE CHANGE you want to see in the world💫

P.S.S Healing Hands of Light Spa has made some FANTASTIC additions and upgrades. Please keep them in mind for your in-person healing needs and a beautiful new community to experience.

What if you F.L.Y?

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06/13/2025

I’m not angry. I’m awake.

I’ve been quiet these past few months
Not because I didn’t have anything to say
But because I’ve been protecting someone I love while fighting off energy that wanted to destroy me

My business was on pause
But it was more than that
My nervous system hit pause.
My spirit was under attack
And I was holding space for my Dad, someone I love deeply as he began the process of his sacred end of life journey. (He's doing pretty well and we're doing our best to enjoy our time)
While also holding off wave after wave of emotional betrayal and abuse from "family" who refuse to face the truth

People lied
People deflected
People told stories that were unbelievably wild and extremely hurtful
Because the truth would require them to be accountable

And I could’ve burned it all down
I had every reason
Every match
Every wound turned weapon

But then I heard Maya Angelou say
“You should never be angry. Anger is poison.”
“If you don’t pick it up, you don’t have to lay it down.”

And it reminded me:
I don’t have to carry what doesn’t belong to me
I don’t have to respond to every lie
I don’t have to make myself small to make other people comfortable

I’ve spent these weeks walking barefoot through fire
Still showing up for others
Still trying to stay soft
Still trying to stay sovereign

And now I’m tired
But I’m not done

Because I miss my work
I miss my clients
I miss the sacred space we create together
And let’s be real ... I can’t afford to keep paying rent and covering expenses without working

So I’m easing my way back
Slowly
Intentionally
In alignment with Spirit
Because this work isn’t just what I do
IT'S WHO I AM

I’ve given myself time to breathe
And now I’m getting ready to offer breath to others again

To those who’ve held space for me, thank you
To those who haven’t, thank you for showing me what you’re capable of.
Either way, I’m clear now
I’m cleaner
Stronger
Softer
And more boundaried than ever

I’m not angry
I’m awake
And I’m returning
Not as I was
But as I AM

✨ Stay tuned: offerings will begin to drip back in soon.
The door is opening, and Spirit will decide what flows through first.

06/03/2025

Shoutout to the woman who made a choice.... not because it was easy, not because she had everything figured out, but because something inside her finally whispered, “I deserve more than this.”
Shoutout to the woman who woke up one day and decided she was going to do things differently. The one who realized that repeating the same cycles, accepting the same apologies with no changed behavior, entertaining the same kind of energy in different bodies..... wasn’t getting her anywhere. The woman who understood that in order to grow, you have to change, and in order to change, you have to let go.
Let go of comfort. Let go of habits. Let go of people who love your potential but never support your process. Let go of the version of herself that made excuses for everyone but never gave herself the same grace.
Shoutout to the woman who is growing and glowing....not because her life is perfect, but because she’s finally pouring into herself the way she used to pour into everyone else. The woman who no longer puts up with what she used to tolerate. The one who now chooses peace over chaos, solitude over fake company, and progress over people-pleasing.
She’s setting boundaries now. She’s no longer overextending for people who wouldn’t even reach for her. She’s walking away from anything that doesn’t feed her soul, doesn’t fuel her purpose, or doesn’t respect her heart. And even when it hurts… even when it’s lonely… she keeps going. Because she knows that her future is worth more than her past.
And shoutout to the woman who’s out here hustling for her future. The one working behind the scenes. Crying in silence. Showing up anyway. The woman who whispers “I got this” while holding back tears, exhausted but still refusing to fold. That quiet kind of strength is different. That’s divine. That’s the kind of strength only God can give.
So to the woman who chose better… who’s choosing herself in rooms she used to shrink in… who’s rebuilding from scratch when nobody clapped for her breakthrough… I see you. I honor you. And I pray that God continues to make your enemies your footstool. That every person who doubted you has a front-row seat to your becoming. That everything you lost is replaced with something real. And that every ounce of pain you’ve endured becomes the very fuel for your purpose.
Because you, my dear, are no longer who you used to be..... and that’s something worth celebrating.