12/31/2025
These are hard to admit, but maybe it’ll help you, too. Let me explain-
Truthfully, I still feel hurt when I see other moms have a blissful postpartum. I was left with a traumatic birth experience, postpartum depression and a body I didn’t recognize. Seeing other women post about their amazing recovery and genuine smiles leaves me feeling like something is wrong with me for not having that experience.
Feeling like a victim has only left me bitter and that’s more toxic than any amount glyphosate on my oats. That bitterness has eaten away at me and I continue to learn to shed it.
Forgiveness-
Holding onto the hurt is only hurting me. Life moves on and I’ve allowed myself to stay stuck in time by refusing to forgive. That’s not how I want to live and I know, deep in my heart, it is selfish to not forgive. It has allowed me to continue being a victim vs overcoming and growing.
Radical honesty-
The more time I spend making excuses for my behavior, the more time I spend stuck. I tend to focus on things I cannot do versus what I can do because it’s painful to admit that I just haven’t made things a priority. Is it that I am too busy to workout or is it that I just haven’t made it a priority? Am I too tired to pray or am I just avoiding it because it’s uncomfortable?
Being honest, no matter how painful, has been an ongoing lesson in adulthood and I’m still working on it.
May we actually use the lesson from this year to create a more joyful, healthier, and fruitful year ahead
