02/23/2024
So...I have been on a BIG late winter, early spring cleaning venture! I've been at it for like 5 days 🥵
If you don't know this about me, it's really hard for me to focus and 'just' clean because I get caught up with reorganizing things which ends up taking a really long time.
I'm so excited to almost be done with my bedroomn, upstairs bathroom and yoga space. I have purged, cleaned, organized, reorganjzed, moved furniture around, rearranged, put a new mattress pad on my bed, fixed things...and I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
The last 6-9 months I had some of the worst fatigue I've ever had in my life, fatigue has been an ongoing symptom of my depression for a long time, but this episode was particularity bad, so having the energy to do this has been amazing...but it brought back a memory from maybe 6 or 7 years ago. I had gone to see a friend and my depression was really bad and she kept wanting me just to snap out of it (I really wish it was that was easy), after I got home I had some energy a week or 2 later, I posted on FB that I had finally cleaned my room and then had texted her later that day. And she said something to me that has stuck in my mind for a very long time. She said, "What? You think cleaning your room is special or a big deal and that people should be proud of you? Well, you need to grow up. People who struggle STILL clean their bedrooms and keep their houses neat." Her response hurt, but didn't really matter because I was proud of myself.
So here I am several years later, still battling depression, even worse than I had experienced then...but, I am so happy and excited to have the energy to be doing this bit of cleaning and organizing/reorganizing.
Just a little advice though, it's ok to not have empathy, we can't identify with everyone. But sympathy is important, maybe you can't identify, but when someone is so happy and they have made a breakthrough, no matter how big or small in your eyes, when you're a friend, you don't minimize their struggle especially during what seems to be a seemingly big accomplishment to them. Needless to say, that friendship ended up fading away for the most part. I
