09/10/2025
I had a client send me this the other day and gave me permission to share it. It is bold. It is powerful. It is worth reading. I am so honored and proud of her for sharing her deepest feelings with me. She deserves to be heard🩷
“I am the white crayon.
The one left behind when the box is opened, the one people glance past on their way to the brighter shades. Red gets chosen to scream passion. Yellow for joy. Blue for calm. But me? I am forgotten, pushed aside, deemed useless because I do not shout when pressed against the page.
I've lived my life watching everyone else get picked first. Their laughter shines louder, their voices take up space, their presence commands attention. And me-l fade. I blend. I disappear.
The white crayon is not broken, but it might as well be invisible. That's how I have felt most of my life: like the extra piece in a set that would still function perfectly without me.
There's a special kind of ache in believing you are unnecessary. It seeps into everything-into your smile that feels forced, into your silence that feels heavy, into the thought that maybe the world would keep turning just fine if you weren't here at all. Being the white crayon means learning how to live with the sting of being overlooked.
But l've started to see something I missed before. The white crayon may not scream across the page, but it leaves its mark in ways no other color can. It softens. It highlights. It makes space where there was none. It turns emptiness into light. It is subtle, quiet, but still essential.
I am the white crayon. For years, I despised that truth. But now, I understand it. I know I will never be the boldest or the brightest. I will never be the one everyone reaches for first. But I am still worth reaching for. And that is enough.”
-Anonymous