02/09/2025
The first time I spoke to God, I asked him for help. That’s when humans typically look to the heavens. When we’re on the floor in agony. I heard a voice so clearly say, “Of course I will help you. I have been waiting for you.” I wasn’t at all surprised to hear this voice. I had been talking to angels and other beings for years. God took me in that day. I didn’t know it at the time but my training and tutelage began the moment I closed my eyes and prayed. All day every day, I was told what to do and I did it. I became a monk of sorts. Studying, learning, following instructions. My relationship with God was safe then to me. No one outside of 3 people knew of my connection. For a long time it stayed that way. But then messages began to flow from God, through me to my clients. I didn’t love it but I dealt with it. Something about it made me feel crazy and uncomfortable. My head whispered “What would people think?” But my fears and trepidation didn’t change what was true. When people sit with me, it’s God they hear from. The healing energy people receive is God’s energy. This fear and trepidation stayed with me for a long time. I would feel physically uncomfortable saying the word God. But today, something happened. I was a guest speaker at a retreat. Only three people there knew who I was. Two of those people know I speak to God. No one else knew. I began with an introduction of myself and everything flew out of my mouth, my relationship with God included. My relationship with God highlighted. No fear. No trepidation. Matter of fact. Firmly. As I was driving home, I heard God’s voice express a feeling of pride. I thought it was because I channeled God’s words effectively. It wasn’t. It was because I sat in a room full of people that didn’t know anything about me and I freely and matter of factly spoke of my relationship with God. I told them how God trained me, molded me and how my whole life is a church. I wasn’t afraid. I wasn’t nervous they would think I was delusional. I just spoke of what is. It took me quite a while to get here. But I feel I crossed some sort of threshold today. Or maybe I was thrown out to sea and I easily swam back to shore.