Why I do What I do...
My life really did changed in 2003 when I checked out of rehab for the second time. Pre-sobriety and recovery I spent my days on an endless loop of narcotics, doctor’s appointments, medical tests, depression, anxiety, and victimhood. My quality of life sucked. I was constantly negative – bitching and moaning about my life and asking the universe, God, whoever was listening, “Why me?” I would walk through the motions of going to yoga or taking a walk or trying a new treatment, but I was INVESTED in being sick. It was awful really. I didn’t want to be around me. I’m pretty sure no one else did either. If anyone I knew had the slightest complaint I would tell them to go to the doctor and “get something” for that. I thought everyone could just be “fixed” with the latest drug on the market. Why, I myself, was on 13-14 different medications at any time and look how well it was working for me! EEK! I was told by very qualified health professionals that I would be on them forever. FOREVER. That’s a long time. And I knew it would kill me. And it almost did. Living this way was incredibly taxing on me physically, mentally, and spiritually… not to mention financially! BEING SICK IS EXPENSIVE.
So, when I hear people bitching and moaning about the price of organic whole foods, yoga classes, chiropractic care, massage therapy, and essential oils I get a little put out. Well, strike that, A LOT put out. You know what is really expensive? Cancer, heart disease, diabetes, and obesity! Here’s the thing… my well being is important. It’s a priority for me today. I want to live a life full of vitality and abundance not sickness and disease. Each day I have a choice: am I going to invest in wellness or sickness? Do I always make the absolute best choices? Nope. But I strive to do better every single day. I want my children and their children to choose wellness and love themselves enough to make their health a priority. I want them to know that they deserve the best foods, the best self care, and the best essential oils on the planet because they are divine and deserve it. And guess what? So. Do. You.
My life is now dedicated to helping others find another way that works for them. And that gives purpose to the struggle and is incredibly rewarding. What are you clinging to? Victimhood? Addiction? Pain? Trauma? A Story? I’m here to tell ya that there is a better way. And every single day we have the opportunity to seek freedom over bo***ge.
INVEST IN YOUR WELLNESS, people! Be an advocate for your own health and break free. Shift does happen! And as Wayne says, “When I change the way I look at things, the things I look at change.”
