Smiling Heart Yoga

04/03/2025

Friends if we are a small human with no concept of history and battles, no concept of kairos time, we will find ourselves powerless living in our heads -- where the past and future are stored, conveniently. In this headspace, we are not required to come down off our cross, off our high horse and serve the real world. No, we are too busy-- busy judging and worrying, busy planning and ruminating....

Friends if we are a small human with no concept of history and battles, no concept of kairos time, we will find ourselves powerless living in our heads — where the past and future are stored,…

03/26/2025

I'm often contemplating the shape of the cross. What does this vertical "On earth as it is in heaven" goal mean? What does the horizontal truth of a wide and gracious energy or spirit that is far-reaching east to west? What feels prescient this week is the humility of embracing energy healing that is pure grace. I went to a Biofield tuning session a few weeks ago and I literally FELT the restoration of water being poured back into my guts, my solar plexus....

I’m often contemplating the shape of the cross. What does this vertical “On earth as it is in heaven” goal mean? What does the horizontal truth of a wide and gracious energy or sp…

02/01/2025

I had a dream I was on vacation with a huge group of people last night. We were now an hour from our rental house and nearing the airport to fly home. I had left my car (read; Soul) at the house thinking we'd be going back. When I realized anyone who had a car (soul)among us, already knew and didn't need to be told, was prepared, I was so angry!!...

I had a dream I was on vacation with a huge group of people last night. We were now an hour from our rental house and nearing the airport to fly home. I had left my car (read; Soul) at the house t…

01/11/2025

Today I went on an audition in Phila. South Philly to be exact-- a block from the restaurant Stogie Joe's. Maybe 11 years ago, I was there enjoying a drink with girlfriends and noticed a sign advertising "Sinatra Sundays'. Well, My Uncle Benny adores him so I told them, I'll be back with my family for that! Fast forward a few months and there we sat, all 12 of us, enjoying some of the city's best pizza and a fine rendition of "I did it My Way"....

Today I went on an audition in Phila. South Philly to be exact– a block from the restaurant Stogie Joe’s. Maybe 11 years ago, I was there enjoying a drink with girlfriends and noticed a…

01/03/2025

I have a yoga client. I guess you could call her that. She lives at the Federal Detention Center for a crime I know nothing about. And I don’t really care. Let’s call her Dee. Dee shared an experience in class today about how she has been practicing with several other inmates and me a couple of times a month since October and how, honestly, she never really understood what the all of the fuss was about....

I have a yoga client. I guess you could call her that. She lives at the Federal Detention Center for a crime I know nothing about. And I don’t really care. Let’s call her Dee. Dee shared an experie…

11/27/2024

We see how God entered the human nervous system especially as we contemplate the cross of Christ. Did Jesus dissociate when he cried out-- Abba, Abba why have you abandoned me? I have thought so yes but in a sense, there was still a part of Him who understood the mission. Take the trauma of the people of the world and transmute it-- once and for all....

We see how God entered the human nervous system especially as we contemplate the cross of Christ. Did Jesus dissociate when he cried out– Abba, Abba why have you abandoned me? I have thought …

10/29/2024

"Your body is the kind of friend who tells you the bad news you dont want to hear,
but need to hear"
Elisha Celeste

10/29/2024

If you have heard of functional freeze and are wondering if you are stuck in it, there are 3 types of people more likely to suffer in this pattern of survival.
- empaths (me)
-caregivers (moms/me)
- high performers (perfectionists/me)

For over 3 decades I was constantly 'on'.

I suffered from chronic IBS, sleep issues, tooth loss, back going out, and bipolar like mood swings. My difficulty concentrating and poor memory led to near constant self- dismissal--
you are so dumb, why can't you do things like normal people, what's wrong with you?

CPTSD is a physical illness which requires a physical plan for healing.

These stories represent the 'state' of being dysregualted or far from my Self. Disconnected from my Truth.

Yoga, Accupuncture, massage and walking in nature are my main 'bottom up' somatic routines for care.

Top down (mindset) work had no power until I healed my root chakra and my sacral (emotional instability).

Now affirmations feel more helpful and true.
I have created capacity for my suffering pain body and that means loads of grief and tears-- aka melting the freeze.

10/29/2024

In case you are wondering, following the 8 limbs of yoga is never not following Christ

10/27/2024

Dropping the rocks you’re carrying in your ‘boat of Light’ is heavy work. I see you ⚓️⛵️

10/27/2024

What happens when you ‘drop the need to sound politically or spiritually correct’ Sarah Abou Hadir

10/26/2024

Have you lived a life used to being collateral damage? The black sheep or scapegoat?
The one where blame was placed...and/or shame.
Someone who had faulty thinking installed about guilt.
Sin
Someone who took on the family dreams and expectations
Maybe perfection will keep me safe
People pleasing, smiling and appearing to be non-threatening

In John 8 we learn that we are not condemnable
not by people and most certainly not by God

Christ became the collateral damage so our formation might be the plan for the new earth

We are invited to allow His sacrifice to shift our identity
to being part of the solution.

Saturday Mantra: I am a reliable visionary