02/27/2026
Doing this kind of work, providing spiritual services is not easy. But it is rewarding beyond measure.
The reward factor is why I stick with it. Despite the fact that Im constantly struggling financially (who isn’t in this economy). Despite the fact that I get mocked and harassed and called all manner of foul slurs because of the niche areas that I am profoundly gifted in. And yes, at this point in my career Im absolutely allowed to call myself gifted.
However, lately, I have found myself wanting to distance myself more and more from my colleagues and others in this industry. I cannot stay silent about fraudulent practices, misaligned morals and the gross abuses of power I am witnessing almost daily.
The spiritual world is grossly corrupt.
In the past week alone I have witnessed a local to me practitioner who runs a well known group claim that the Epstein files are a spiritual psyop and urging their followers to look away. When questioned this person cited conspiracy theories as fact and denied that this behavior was bypassing and harmful to victims. I then asked, “as healers, how are we to heal a wound we are not allowed to look at directly”? And was met with more resistance. And finally a, “we will have to agree to disagree”. This person I’m speaking about is also a terf, which I wasn’t aware of until very recently. (Trans exclusionary feminist).
So again, as healers, how are we supposed to heal a wound we are not allowed to acknowledge or look at? Anyone? I’m posing this question to the collective because the spiritual leaders who are in direct proximity to me have no answers, only avoidance and conspiracy theories of which I hold in the utmost contempt.
In addition to what I wrote above that is happening in my local community, I also witnessed a group of Reiki MASTERS and healers of varying levels and abilities standing in defense of Donald Trump, under the banner of neutrality. Many of them admittedly violating their oaths (yes, we take an oath) to not violate the consent or autonomy of another living being by claiming to be sending Trump and his cabinet Reiki without consent.e If you’re not disgusted by this then you should probably leave my space.
Then there’s all of the spiritual practitioners using AI and glorifying and promoting it. I don’t understand this particular flavor of cognitive dissonance at all. It’s probably brain damage because nothing else makes sense to me.
I really don’t know what to do about any of this. I’m horrified and disgusted by my colleagues. My stress levels are at maximum capacity and I feel like a lone voice shouting into the void that these people are damaging and harmful to the collective as a whole. I mean sure, I could drop names, I’m already seen as a loud mouth trouble maker so it’s not like it would hurt my reputation any nor do I actually care about other peoples opinions of me. But would it stop them from spreading their gross ideals? Would it stop them from pushing harmful, irresponsible rhetoric onto unsuspecting seekers? Probably not.
Please. Vet your spiritual practitioners like you would vet a potential babysitter for your child. Ask them questions. If they talk around the subject and don’t answer you directly, thats your fist clue that something is terribly wrong.
Would you want to receive services or align yourself with people who openly support pedophiles and rapists and zionists and terfs, under the banner of neutrality?
Energy is energy, it can neither be created nor destroyed, only redirected and transmuted. When you are receiving spiritual services from someone, you are agreeing to receive their energy just as they are agreeing to receive yours. I’m constantly putting myself at risk to help people deal with severe trauma and spiritual sicknesses such as addiction and mental health disorders.
As a projector, my aura is sticky and it takes little bits of the people I help with it. My spiritual hygiene is on point - it has to be otherwise I’d constantly be sick from all of the people I help and still, as much as I practice what I preach, as much as I make sure to clear myself after every session sometimes things come through and I end up sick regardless of the precautions I have taken. No, I’m not being melodramatic and yes you can easily become ill from energy transfers going wrong or other peoples spiritual attachments.
So what would you do? And how are healers supposed to heal wounds they are not ‘allowed’ to acknowledge or examine? Because what we are witnessing isn’t just the wounding of the living victims, this is a collective wound that has existed for thousands of years. Im not dismissing the living victims experiences nor am I piggybacking off of it. I too am a victim of sexual assault. This is a problem that has existed for millennia, it is a collective wound that we must heal, together as a collective. Generational trauma is real, scientists call it epigenetics.
Im sickened and disheartened by so many of my colleagues. I really don’t know what to do about it. They are, I fear, beyond hope. Not everyone can be saved, and I’m tired of trying. Im so tired.
That is all. I needed to share my sorrows tonight. Im on overwhelm. And I should be able to go to my community with these concerns, but unfortunately a large majority of my community is the problem.
I love you. Please do better. Please heal. Stop being a fu***ng ignorant twatwaffle who says one thing and does another then denies the reality of millions of women and children (men too) who have been subjugated for the whims of sick men who abuse their power.
It’s time to end this. It’s time for us to heal. Nothing changes if we turn a blind eye, if we stay silent, if we allow corruption to persist.
It is time.
Please.
Do better. I know it hurts, but we can hold each other up and hold each other accountable through the pain and come through this mess stronger.
Together.
That’s it. Im all cried out now, thanks for listening.
-Z
