05/15/2026
We Continue to Heal, Don’t We?
As most of you know, I am watering the seeds to a very big dream, a very big next. An expansion of this healing work, an expansion of peace, and a different way I want to show up in the world.
Today, I had a lot of feelings. Waves around childhood, motherhood, and the now. Deep grief. Deep release.
And an intrusive thought "your house hasn't sold because you did something wrong"
It felt like a punch to my heart and gut, simultaneously. And more tears.
I let myself cry, believe that thought for a bit... and then... I stepped outside. I got my hands in the dirt. Pulled some weeds. Felt the sunshine on my body.
That intrusive thought began to dissolve. It couldn't hold fast in that space. My tears dried. I approached with curiosity and anger...
Where in my programming was I shamed into believing that me, doing the absolute best I can, following my heart, was controlling the sale of a house? In a market that is volatile and full of fear?
And what in the outside environment is supporting the programming? The bombarding "change your vibration" "manifest" "you don't believe in yourself enough, once you do, you will sell"
And to that, I say... NO. NO MORE.
Yes, there is such value in imagining what you want, working as hard as you know how towards it. There is amazing value in healing wounds that limit your capacities. It is important to speak your hopes/dreams/desires into existence.
And sometimes.
It's just the market. The macrocosm pushing agains your microcosm. The change in money value. The ins-outs. Not quite understanding the timing delay.
It's not because you're not worth it.
It's not because you messed up.
I'm sorry for whomever told you, me, any of us differently.
Sometimes, it's just the God blessed Market.
