12/18/2024
"My entire life, I’ve had that inner critic always up my ass, never stopping to remind me of the incredible and sometimes insanely challenging things I’ve overcome. I call that voice Felicia. No offense to anyone with that name, it just came to me one day. Once I named her, I felt my deep anger toward this voice. She’s a real bitch, I said. But then I realized that I needed to love her, to focus that love strongly and for as long as needed until a major shift occurred. Sometimes I close my eyes and hug her tight; other times, I give her some expensive chocolate and treat her to loving words. I’ve grown patient with Felicia. I’ve learned to laugh with her and sing away the dark thoughts. So today, she and I deserve some big-time love and celebration for being so damn unstoppable. For moving through some of the scariest pain episodes, for being ignored for years by doctors, for being scared of dying young, for finding joy in isolation.
Lyme disease is the most aggressive illness I’ve ever experienced. It changes you forever. It can take your life apart if you let it, and it can pull away your pure authenticity and take your light.
This journey has felt like the most shamanic-like purification—so deeply intense. I’ve had so many tears, sobs of grief, and bone-shapeshifting releases."
- Excerpt from my new Musing on Healing with Lyme.
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About halfway through my Lyme disease treatment, I feel the need to express how I feel about myself in this moment. My entire life, I’ve had that inner critic always up my ass, never stopping to remind me of the incredible and sometimes insanely challenging things I’ve overcome. I call that voic...